WHAT WAS IT ?

Chapter 13

We return to our room. Really I felt that the GREAT THING which I have done was worth Efforting. The decision I made was at its worth. It's has some meaning in it. May be God wants to have me more than a Writer as my profession. Remembering such a dreadful that four fucking years of my life, I realised that every fall has rise. Every sunset has sunrise. Happiness surely comes after Sadness. Lightness comes after darkness. I felt that. I felt - May be those four shitty years of darkness leads me to this bright present, to this BEAUTIFUL CITY OF LOVE, i.e MY DREAM CITY, PARIS.

Yeah, sometimes it happens that through continuous sadness, your soul may get tired and become freeze. To melt that ice in your soul, there should be always one person in your life which fucks you hardly and can make you realise that you are worth living. You shouldn't quit here. You should do more and more. Perhaps, it happens that the guy and lady, in order to escape reality, fucks each other very harder.

But FUCKING EACH OTHER is not only important thing. Yeah, ofcourse it has it's own importance but only fucking with skins can prove you prostitute or horny. If it's love, then you need sex and if it's not, then may sex is enough. May be that's why I believe - Love needs sex, but sex doesn't need love, agree? Those are the words I read it on Instagram, a very popular social media. That's sentence completely makes sense.

That's why, sometimes I think that I need sex with Sadon as I love him. But still sometimes my body was only craving for his body and not soul. Therefore, here the conclusion is I need lust instead of love. But I was confused whether it is love or lust. Ofcourse, I love him but I need him, I need to touch his every skin, every organ. May be that's why, sometimes I think I was just only lusty for him. So, much of confusion to let it decide that whether it is love or lust? I Don't Know What Was It? Love or Lust.

That kiss was something. Hell yeah, it was worst one but still that's an important one, a passionate one. Even, in jail, I missed him very much. Its not about that touch on lips, but the excitement of kissing each other was a lit man!! We were talking to kiss each other and so we made it on terrace. That's why may be Terrace plays an important role in my life.

"Finally. We're in our room. Sadon look at this view", pointing out the view with my hand, "Incredible!! Amazing!! Excellent!! Beautiful!! Nature has it's own way to make human impress. Oh, Jesus!! Wow!! God!! This scene....!! Favorable to us, huh?", I chuckles.
"Of course.", Sadon sighed. "Atleast we're at our best time, I think. That's why God always encourages us to have a faith on him. You're right, Tessa. There is sunrise after every Sunset and glance of light in every room/evil of darkness."

Such support from lover makes me feel even more better. I don't know what he was thinking right then. But the one thing I was sure that he was surely enjoying my company and want this company forever.

We were then decide to rest as it was 7:00 am i.e. morning but our stomach was demanding the food. Hence, we decided to order the food as a facility given to us. "What's their in the menu?" - I asked Sadon as Menu card was in his hands.
"Snacks, different type of Tea and coffee and the only one flavour of wine i.e Black Currant Jelly Wine...", Sadon replied.
"Which sorts of Snacks?", I asked again.
Instead of answer, Sadon hold me a menu and told, "See...". Ordering his food, he told, "Mine is Black Tea and Pineapple Double Layered Pizza."
"I can understand that tea is necessary now as it is morning. But how can you eat Pizza with Tea? I mean, yuck...", I yelled with smile.
"That's me only. Don't judge me. Okay?", Sadon replied through snapping his fingers towards me.
"Ofcourse. I am not judging you. But how can someone eat like that? Whatever it is, let it go..." And continued pointing out the telephone number on Menu,"See. May be this is the number, we have supposed to be try for ordering the food."
"Let's try".