WHAT WAS IT ?

Chapter 4

Tessa's POV

It's been 4 years now. I have become now 22 years old. The day I suppose to be release i.e 24th March, 2019 from jail has been arrived. I was very excited. Want to see the different in situations that happened in those 4 years since I left the home. I want to see my sister, Rehanna's child, want to see my family, friends, my cheerful brother and the most important that fucking SADON.

I was very curious to know about Sadon's situation that whether he married to his fiance or not. I'm just filled with emotions when I first thought him. I was heartbroken. But also want to see my family situations.

"Come on." Lady Police utter with some kind of expression on face. I step out from jail, signs the legal documents that states - IF I DOES TO TRY TO KILL SOMEONE NOW ONWARDS, THEN I WILL DIRECTLY SHOOTED BY THE POLICE. "Can you hear the document?" Lady Police asked me pointing out that fucking documents and so I answered her positively that I understood what is written in those documents and promise not to do that shit again.

I sat in the police jeep which was specially arranged for me to drop me at my home. Home arrives. Police rang the bell. Mom opens the door and I just immediately hugged her without saying her any word. "Now, it's your responsibility." Police uttered those four words handling my responsibility to my family and leave.

I meet my grandma. I please her again but then again no response or forgiveness from her. I cried but nothing happened. I meet my brother with the eyes full of tears of happiness but then my brother ignore me and said," I'm busy. Sorry. I don't have time to talk to the killer." "I'm not a killer. Once again I am saying I was just in angry state of mind that's why I took that step. Please try to understand me. I am innocent. I am not a killer." I yelled with the eyes full of tears.

My dad directly said me to my mom," Tessa is dead for us since 4 years. Don't forget that." "No. No. You can't do that. I'm here. In front of you. Please forgive me dad. Please for God Sake. If you don't like me, then I will just leave the house but don't considered me as a dead girl. Please dad. I will not rome in house. Just give me the corner of your house. I will surely satisfy myself from that Corner. But please dad, accept me, Tessa, your daughter as an alive girl."
Those statement of mine were literally full of emotions and bloody tears.

Nobody was happy seeing me in the house. Everyone ignores me when I tried to have a single sort of conversation. They just answer my question in a very simple manner like I am not their daughter. I felt like I was treated as an Unknown Orphan. That feeling was killing me inside taking my outer glow.

"I need food. I'm hungry". "Bake your own.", Mom said. "Yeah. I will bake my food. But please don't treat me like an Orphan."- I said to mom. But here again she continue her work and ignore me and left the room. I make my food not uttering a single word but my mind was full of thousands thoughts. At the time of dinner, I decorate the table through regular items that has been baked by my mom for family but not for me. I tried to have a conversation with them along with dinner but literally every fucking body ignores me and concentrate on their dish. My tears have now no more space and they came out from my eyes. Everybody in the house notice me that I am crying but they all were too busy to stop me from crying. Therefore, I decided to go to terrace through which I can relax myself.

As I step on the terrace and have a view of terrace, I become nostalgia. "How can I forget this? That shouldn't mean to forget and ofcourse he must have also to remember. But where is he? Is he married or single or engaged? God I need answers. Four years ago on this fucking terrace I asked you (God) for answers. But then no answers. Only jail. What is this? I am innocent and no one can knows this better than you. God please show me the way. Handle my family. Make them turn towards me with their eyes full of love. Please God. Now, it's time to do miracle."

I was talking all of this to God & suddenly heard the footstep's sound that coming on the terrace. So, I wipped off my tears & make a face like nothing's happened. I sighed, I was comfortable because there was no one else but Sadon only. I was unbelievable & filled with confused emotions. I don't know what to do whether to hug him or ignore him. So, I just tried to not to utter a single word to him.

His foot comes towards me & said,"Hello. How are you? When you return back here? Don't you have shame for all this? But, seriously I don't think so, you can does such a disaster thing. Am I right?"  "Yes. Yes, you are completely right. I am innocent. I was in jail for 4 years even  I have not done any sort of crime. Yeah, that's right that I had a knife in my hand on that day, but that was only because of my frustration on my grandma. Please, atleast you believe me. My family right now is treating me like an Orphan instead of their real daughter. My brother labelled me as a killer & he doesn't have a time to talk to killer. Please, try to understand me."- I replied him with the eyes full of tears & hoping for support atleast.

"Okay! I believe in you. No need to worry. I am here for you. You can talk me whenever you want like earlier. Nothing will change between us. Your secret are safe with me. You know this, right?"- Sadon supported me. "Really thank you so much, Sadon. Alot of thanks to you. May all your dreams comes true. I will pray for you to God."- I replied him with my whole big heart. Now, really, I felt that atleast there is someone who understands me & believe in me.

"Let me give you a huge news, after two months, I will get marry to my fiance, Lopaie on 3rd June, 2019 . Preparation were started from 8-9 months. My family is really excited for this including me." Hearing those words from Sadon's mouth, I was completely numb. I am ensure that SADON WILL MARRY TO LOPAIE AS HE NEVER EVER LIKED ME. That left me heartbroken. But I faked smile and congrats him for this.
Having smile on his face,he said,"We had a kiss on this terrace. We were children. We make memories. We grow up & reality hits us. We separated. I engaged. You went jail for doing nothing. You came back. Now, we are talking. I will remember all this memories."  "Yeah", I replied just in one word because he was totally ready for his marriage but I was not. Because even now though I loved him & may be forever. But I understood, HE'S GONNA NEVER BE MINE.