Ricky & Nini : After All

Chapter 14 : Confused

2am: Ricky's POV:

Sometimes I wish I could just sleep my problems away. I know that's a very irrational thought, but at the moment I'm having too many thoughts. It's currently 2am and I can't sleep. I want to. But my thoughts are keeping me awake.

I don't what to do. Just a day ago I was writing a love song for her and looking at engagement rings. Now, I'm more confused than I've ever been. The main reason is because I have a gut feeling that if I go back and try to return to normal, something like this will happen again. 

I really don't want to believe it though. Has everything these past three years been too good to be true? Or was I just blind to all of the red flags? I really don't know. 

15 hours earlier...

Nini's POV:

I know I need to talk to Carter about everything, especially now that an article is circulating about the kiss. I can't just leave him hanging like that. Can't Maddy just leave us alone? I'm kinda tired of dealing with all this.

The first person I had to explain everything to was Kourtney, though. "Nini, why didn't you tell me that you and Carter kissed?" She asked as we got ready for the day.  Her flight home is late tonight, so we were going to spend the day hanging out around Vancouver. "I don't know...I'm kind of embarrassed about it. Not because of Carter, he's great. But because I can't make up my mind. I don't know if I like him. I think I was too harsh towards him at the party. But before he talked to me, I didn't think the kiss meant anything, since we didn't really talk much after that. I thought maybe he didn't like me anymore. I wasn't afraid of what you would say, because you're always so supportive. I should've told you. I'm sorry." I explain. 

"Oh, Nini. It's okay." She says, giving me a hug. I'm going to miss her so much. 

Once we finished getting ready, I took Kourtney to get some delicious coffee at one of my favorite coffee shops. Obviously, I took her to some of my favorite boutiques as well, considering how much she loves fashion. I found a cute headband and I had to buy it. 

We hung out around town for a few more hours before heading back to the apartment. "I don't know if all of this is going to fit in my suitcase!" Kourtney says, as she set down all of her shopping bags on the counter. I laugh. 

After I make some popcorn for us,  we sit down and pick out a movie to watch on Netflix. After the movie, Kourtney looks over at me and says, "You are going to talk to Carter, right, Nini?" 

"Yeah, Kourt. Eventually. I mean, soon. I don't know. I know I need to." I reply. "Yeah, it'd be for the best." She says with a small smile.

Then, I help Kourtney pack and get ready for her uber ride to the airport. "I had the best time Nini." She says, giving me a big hug. "I did too, Kourt. I love you. Have a safe flight." I respond, hugging her tighter. She pulls away and grabs her bags. She gets in the car and waves goodbye. Part of me wanted to shed a tear, but I already know that distance doesn't hurt our relationship. If anything, it's made the time we do have together even more special.

I go back inside my apartment and realize I just need to get it over with. There's no point in avoiding it any longer. I call Carter. "Hey." I say quietly. 

"Hi, Nini." He replies. "Can you come over now? I know we need to talk." I say. "Yeah, sure." He responds. He doesn't sound like his usual happy self.