Ricky & Nini : After All

Chapter 15 : Broken

Ricky's POV:

I kind of expected that response, but I was hoping that it would be anything but that. I was hoping it'd be fixable. I mean, it might still be. But is it worth it? Would I ever be able to fully gain Gina's trust? Or is it her own insecurities that are making her feel this way? 

Or are we just not meant to be after all?

My heart hurts. I don't know what to do. If we try to make the relationship work, what's stopping us from getting hurt even worse in the future? I keep texting Nini, even though she barely knows what's going on in our relationship aside from what I've told her. Do I listen to her advice?

Nini's POV:

I hope I'm giving Ricky good advice and not letting any bias I have towards Gina get in the way. I mean, sure, she's not my favorite person, but I don't want that to impact how I view their relationship. 

I just think that if this isn't the first time something like this has happened, it's not going to be the last. Jealousy is just wired into Gina's brain. If you don't click with every part of someone, and help each other become stronger, better people, then are you really meant for each other? 

I mean, I strongly stand by the point that you should be happy alone before you choose to get into a relationship with someone. As far as I can tell, from the little information Ricky has given me and how Gina has acted, Gina needs Ricky to be happy. And in my opinion, that's not healthy for both Gina and Ricky.

Eventually, after I give him my opinion, we start catching up on life. I don't want to admit it, but I do miss talking to him. He was my best friend, and now we know barely anything about each other's lives, except for what is shown on social media.

One plus of Ricky texting me was that it took my mind off of the drama with Carter, even if it was just for twenty minutes. 

I don't know if we're actually going to talk more after this, or if we both just said that to be nice. I wouldn't mind talking to him more. But if he does stay with Gina, which I kind of expect him to, we might not be able to. Ricky is the type of guy who just wants to fix a situation. He doesn't give up. But maybe, he'll realize, that this isn't a time where it's giving up. It's walking away from a situation that isn't beneficial to either person. 

Arguing is normal in a relationship. You're not going to agree on everything. Jealousy in small amounts is expected too, especially in the first year of a relationship. But in a serious, committed relationship like the one between Ricky and Gina, you'd think that'd they would both be ready to seal the deal and completely love and trust one another. I guess I can't make any assumptions because I don't really know what goes on between them, but it's still something interesting to think about. 

It's about 3am when I finally drift off to sleep. 

It's dark and I'm in a forest. I'm looking around, and I don't know which way to go. I hear the crunching of leaves behind me. A shadowy figure starts running towards me. I run, not caring where I'm going. I don't turn around to see how close the figure is to me. I just keep running. When I do turn around, I realize my feet are no longer on solid ground. I'm falling. And falling. And falling. 

I shoot up out of bed. I'm sweating. I feel like I actually did just go for a run. That was one weird dream. I think. What does it mean?

I check my phone, and it's 9am. I decide to forget about whatever the hell just happened in my dream and go make breakfast.

Gina's POV:

I'm heartbroken. But more than that, I'm outraged. How dare he leave me like that!  I think over again and again. He never even said when he was coming back. I barely slept all night, and when the sun finally rose I just decided to get up. 

A million thoughts were circulating inside my mind.

Is he considering ending the relationship? He better not be. I've put too much into this relationship for him to give up on me. 

But fortunately for me, I still have work to deal with. I finished up my early morning lessons and head back to the apartment. I realize that I left my computer bag at the studio, and I have some emails to answer. I found Ricky's Macbook and went to the living room. 

I already knew his password, because it's "ginaporter12". The 12th is the day we starting dating. April 12th to be exact. 

I open up Gmail and log in to my account. After responding to a few emails about ad opportunities and dance classes, I realize that Ricky has a lot of unopened text messages. I click on the message app, and my heart sinks to the floor when I read who he's been texting. 

Nini. 

He leaves me for a day, and THAT's who he immediately goes to for advice and support. I keep reading the texts, even though I feel slightly guilty for doing it. But I have to know what they said to each other. My eyes widen as I realize what Nini is saying.

 This bitch is telling him to break up with me! Who does she think she is?  I think.

Tears start running down my face. They're angry tears. I hear the front door start to open. Ricky. Before I even see his face, I'm already yelling.

"You're an awful person. You know that? Why the hell would you go and talk to HER? Of all people." I scream. "I can't believe you." 

When I make I eye contact with him as he walks around the corner, I realize he's carrying flowers. I'm so confused. He's frozen in shock. He looks like he's about to cry. I broke him.

"I can't believe this. I was really about to give you a second chance. I was thinking of PROPOSING to you. I even wrote you this stupid song. Now, it means nothing. I'm done. We're over." He says. His voice cracks. In that moment, my heart does too. 

"Fine, then! I'm leaving. I never want to see you again!" I scream. I don't mean it. But I have to mean it, because I'm not going to let Ricky see my weakness. I grab my purse and leave. I don't look back to see Ricky's face one last time. I'm done. It's over.

But as I'm getting in my car, tears start flowing down my face until I'm sobbing. What did I just do? 

Once I calm down enough to be able to drive, I go to the dance studio, because I have lessons this afternoon anyway. I guess I'll stay with one of my friends who also teach lessons. As soon as I get there, though, I'm realize that I'm sick to my stomach. I go inside and tell Erica, one of the other instructors, that she'll have to cover for me. I explain her that Ricky and I just broke up, and she wraps me in a big hug. 

I don't tell her that it's mostly my fault, because I don't want to admit that. But I know it is. And that makes it all hurt even worse.