what about her? (DIXISON)

I can't like her

 Addison's POV

I started waking up to the sound of music blasting and people yelling. ugh what is happening. then it hit me, I'm being cuddled by someone. as soon as I realised I was being cuddled I knew it was dixie. I could smell her perfect smell that made me fell so safe. I had my head on her chest so I couldn't see her face but I could tell she was asleep because I could hear her heart beat and how it's calm and steady.

I started to slowly get off of dixie but she pulled me back down so that I was on my side with my head on her shoulder. "stay" I hear her faintly say. "I want to go see whats happening down stairs" I tried explaining but I didn't get a response. "fine" I said giving up and wrapping my arm across her stomach to pull her closer to me as I rested my head in the crook of her neck. there was no use in trying to get up because she had her one arm wrapped around me and had a strong hold on me.

After awhile I felt her start moving a little "you ready to go down stairs yet?" I asked. "yeah but I rather just stay like this forever" she said as she pushed herself up so she was sitting, which caused me to slide down her and onto lap which caused me to quickly jump off her. She looked at me weird but shook it off and headed to the door ready to go down stairs. I followed her and as soon as I look down stairs I see a whole bunch of people dancing and drinking alcohol.

Of course their throwing a random party without telling us. Dixie was already in the kitchen getting a drink. oh no she can't drink, whenever she drinks it causes me to drink and her and I always get into some type of bad situation.

"Dixie please don't drink tonight" I said with puppy dog eyes. "come on adds, it'll be fun and after our whole fight I think we deserve to have a little fun" she said as she handed me a cup of alcohol. "you know what... fuck it". I said as I downed the cup. "HELL YEAH'" she said as she chugged another cup and pulled me to where everyone was dancing.

It's been about two hours and we are full on drunk. we've been dancing most of the time. her and I not leaving each others side the whole time. a lot of people have left and it was mainly just everyone that lives in the house.

"OKAY GUYS TRUTH OR DARE TIME" Tony yelled. someone turned the music down and everyone headed to the living room and gathered in a circle. some on the couch and some on the floor. Dixie sat next to me on the floor. "so ill ask first. okay Charli truth or dare?" Tony asked charli. "I'll go with dare" charli said looking a little scared of what he might make her do" "I dare you to text your crush" Tony said with a huge smirk. Of course it was going to be chase... but after she sent it we heard avani's phone go off. avani looked up from her phone and smiled at the extremely embarrassed charli. we all started screaming and laughing but chase didn't seem that happy. "I knew charli liked her" I heard dixie whisper to me. for some reason when she whispered in my ear it made my heart start beating really fast, weird. 

As the game continued it finally got to my turn. "addi truth or dare" said avani with a smirk. "umm... ah.. dare?" I said kinda scared on what she had planed because of her smirk that she gave me. " I dare you to makeout with dixie for a whole minute... while sitting on her lap". she said with the hugest grin. my whole body just froze and I could see that dixie was also very very tense. yet because I was still very much drunk I scooted over a little so that I was now in front  of her. I looked at her in the eyes trying to see if she was okay with it. She just shook her head yes. I sat on her lap and looked her in the eyes again just to make sure its okay. After she nodded her head yes I smashed my lips on her. I started to kiss her but it took her a few seconds but she started kissing back. fuck it felt so good. like why does this feel so right? after a few more seconds I felt her relax more and the kiss got more and more heated every second. we heard everyone start screaming and clapping. her and I kept going not really knowing how much longer we have. "guys you can stop now" I felt charli push my shoulder. as soon as I felt her touch me I jumped off of dixie and sat in my spot where I was before without making any eye contact with her. scared to meet her gaze.

Why did that feel so good? Why did I just want to keep going forever? Am.. am.. i... no I can't.... I'm straight..... right?

"okay im.. imma go head to bed" I said getting up and still not looking at dixie. I went into our room and just plopped onto the bed looking up at the ceiling while my heart was still going a mile a minute. I heard a knock at the door and got up to answer it. I opened it and my eyes met Dixies eyes. fuck her hazel eyes are so pretty. wait... no no... stop thinking about her like that. "can I come in?" she said which caused me to get out of my thoughts. "ummm yeah of course" I said while moving to the side so she can walk in. she walked over to her bed and sat on the edge. "so where's Taylor" I said trying to make convocation but it came of as if I was annoyed and she definitely noticed. "addi don't start this please" she said with an annoyed tone in her voice. "sorry I didn't mean to say it like that. I was just wondering because he wasn't at the party and your not in his room since you normally sleep in there and rarely come in here." "he had something come up for work and had to leave for a little but will be back in like two weeks I think he said". "oh okay... does that mean you're going to sleep in here with me?" I asked kinda hoping she wasn't because my mind is in overdrive at the moment after our little makeout session.

"yeah if that's okay with you" she says as she goes to grab some of her clothes out of the closet. "yeah I mean it's your room too, you know if you forgot or something" I said kinda sad now thinking out how its been months since she's actually slept in here. she saw that I was kinda upset about that fact that she's never in here anymore. "adds look I'm sorry that I haven't slept in here and haven't been with you in awhile. Its just that Taylor and I have been really happy together so I've been with him a lot." Yeah I know. I get it. its just that I miss you sometimes. like it used to just be you and I all the time and we would always be watching movies and laughing at the top of our lungs at like 4am." I said with a smile on my face because of picturing all of those things. "haha yeah... I miss us" she said but then her smile turned into a frown. "addi look I'm sorry I haven't been here like I normally am. how about I make it up to you and we have a movie night like we used too?" she said as she walked into the bathroom standing by the door way looking back at me. "yeah I would love that. I'll go get the snacks." I said while opening the door to go get the snacks".

Does she not care about the makeout session or is she even thinking about it. what am I thinking, she probably couldn't careless. she has a boyfriend at the end of the day so why am I even thinking about it so much. I don't even like girls in that type of way. Yet I can't get it out of my mind. how soft her lips are and how they fit perfectly against mine. oooo and how her lips taste like strawberries. fuck I can't get her out of my stupid mind. addi pull yourself together.

I got the snacks and opened up the door to our room and I stoped dead in my tracks. "fuck" I breathed out lowly. there stood dixie in sweatpants and a sports bra. I don't know why this made my head go crazy because I've seen her in crop tops and stuff but it was definitely messing with my mind. "you okay addi?" she asked concerned. "ughh yeP" I said trying to pull myself together.

This is going to be a long long night.

This is really long so sorry but I'm not proof reading. Also just wanted to say that I know Dixie and Addison are straight and Dixie made it clear that she is. I have no problem with her being straight and all. THIS IS JUST A STORY. Ive known all along that she is straight. I just think their friendship makes a great story and makes it easy to picture them as a couple because of how close they are.