New Students // NCT Renjun

I am very happy :D

Wasn't I supposed to be super happy now? My crush had just confessed to me. Why did I feel so miserable?
As I looked at Renjun it felt like my heart slowly broke apart. It was my fault that he'd been hurting. I made him so sad. All I could think about is how to make him feel better.
Awkwardly I crawled over the sofa until I sat in front of him. Without giving it too much thought I cupped his face with my hands and wiped away his tear.
"I like you too. A lot."
So we sat there, looking at each other in silence. My turn, I told myself.
My eyes rested on his lips.
Was he coming closer? He definitely was. I should too. Slowly. We were only 3 inches apart now. Millions of thoughts were racing through my mind. 2 inches. Why had I never noticed just how pretty Renjun was?
1 inch. Our noses brushed against each other. I could feel Renjun's breath on my skin; he was breathing way faster than he was supposed to. I was almost expecting something to go wrong at this point. Someone would drop a cup again, someone would walk in - but we were home alone. There was no one to disrupt us.
We kissed.
My mind went blank. All I felt were Renjun's lips softly pressing against mine. I wanted to stay like this forever, but way too soon we were gasping for air.
I rested my arms on his shoulders and breathed heavily. I felt like a huge weight that had been sitting on my chest for a month now had disappeared.
I didn't want to say or do anything because I feared that I would ruin the moment, but I didn't have to worry about that. Renjun slung his arms around my thighs and pulled me closer. As I lay on the sofa he hovered over me. He ran one hand through my messy hair and looked at me. "Sofia."
He said my name with so much love and affection that it gave me goosebumps all over my body. I wanted to sob. Instead, I pulled him down and kissed him again.
We eventually had to stop because we couldn't stop laughing after Renjun's hand slipped and he almost rolled down the sofa. I sat up.
"Shall we move this to your room?"
"I'd love to."
I grabbed his hand and ran towards his room, but as soon as he closed the door behind him he turned me around and slung both arms around me.
"How do you feel right now?"
"Me? Very happy."
"Good to know I'm not the only one."
He frowned down at me when I yawned. "Are you tired? You should've said something."
"Hmm? No, I'm good. Let's lie down though." I stretched and yawned again.
"Come on, you're really tired. Let's go to sleep now."
"No! I want to talk to you some more."
Renjun laughed and let go of me. He sat down cross-legged on the bed and looked at me expectantly.
I ignored the mattress and lay down next to him.
"Sleep now. We can talk tomorrow." He gently pulled me onto his lap and started caressing my head. I felt my cheeks getting hot.
We stayed like this for a while and I slowly started falling asleep.

I woke up feeling well rested for the first time this month. It took me a second to remember where I was. It all came back to me: I was in Seoul at Renjun's aunt's house. I kissed Renjun yesterday. I fell asleep on his lap.
I smiled into the pillow.
I shifted a bit and realized Renjun had wrapped his arm around my waist. It took me all my willpower not to squeak. Slowly, to not wake him up, I turned around. He was still asleep, his mouth slightly opened, his hair messy. When I had first met him he had had light brown hair, but his hair was almost completely black now except for the still lighter ends.
I stared at his sleeping face in affection. Hesitantly and softly I touched his face. I traced his wrinkles from laughing and his jawline with my fingertips. He was so pretty.
I touched his lips carefully. I couldn't believe I kissed them yesterday.
Too late I noticed him peeking. "Having fun?"
"OH MY GOD!" I would've fallen off the bed of Renjun didn't grab me and pulled me back onto the bed.
I slapped him with the pillow. "You did not have to scare me like that!"
Renjun stared at me in amused shock. "What were your hands doing in my face in the first place?!"
This time I face palmed myself with the pillow to hide my embarrassment. I felt Renjun moving, but didn't look up, which meant I wasn't prepared to be hit by the pillow he just grabbed from the other side of the bed.
"Excuse me?" In that moment I had a truly terrible idea: I threw my pillow at him. It hit his face with a satisfying thunk, but my happiness turned into terror when I realized that he now had two pillows and I had none. Needless to say I had no chance of winning this pillow fight. Laughing uncontrollably I tried to crawl away from him, but he somehow managed to wrap me up with the blanket. So there was I, a blanket burrito, helplessly exposed to Renjun. Luckily he dropped both pillows and kneeled next to me. He poked me a few times. "That's an interesting look on you."
He gave me a peck on the cheek and helped me get out of the blanket. "Come on, let's eat breakfast now."

Auntie Huang was sitting on the couch watching TV. "Ah, you're finally awake! I was already wondering how long you two had stayed awake last night. Breakfast is on the dinner table. After that you can maybe change into normal clothing and brush your hair a little and walk around Seoul."
We were halfway through the doorway when she added, "Oh and I checked up on you two after I came home this morning. You could have just told me that you two are dating. I wouldn't have bothered carrying that mattress into the room if I knew you were gonna sleep together anyways."