Love is strange

Him and I

I am torn between wanting you back and letting you go...I just don't know what to do, I am so confused...My brain says me to let you go but my heart has different story... All the memories come back to me and it kills me, it destroys me...I remember everything from the first day I met you to the last hug...There are millions of signs which are telling me to forget you and move on but I am persistently looking for one reason to give you another chance, to forgive you...But if I forgive you , would you be the same ? I don't want you back if you treat me like I am not important to you...I want you to love me as much as I love you...As you loved me at the beginning...I thought that you changed but maybe I am wrong...I have read somewhere "The most relationships last for around 3 months and it is because no one can pretend longer than 3 months.After 3 months all masks fall down and they show their real faces".Now I am really confused about us...But I know one thing for sure...You loved me...You can't act that passionate kisses, that hugs...You can't act that glow in your eyes...No no, I know you loved me...Loved...The only problem here is that I still love you...I hoped that we will last forever...I was ready to spend my life with you...You are safe in my heart and I don't want to let you go...I want to be as strong as you are and continue with my life but I just can't...Something is killing me the most and it is the desire to know if you still love me and want me back...You know, I am broken but I am ready to give you another chance if you promise me to treat me right...You just need to say that you love me and I am all yours again...Why love is so complicated ? Why love hurts this much ? They will say if it hurts more than it is making you feel good then it is not the right thing...But oh , they just don't know how much I am into you and how I love you...Why breakups are so heartbreaking...? I need help but no...The only ones who can solve this problem are us...You don't want to cooperate and how can I solve that problem alone ? How ? Tell me how ? If you loved me enough you would fight for us for our relationship...But what you did..?You just walked away...No single word was said after that...Oh God I can't help myself anymore...I can't stop tears from falling down my cheeks...Everything in this world is solvable...It's all about the way of solving something...If you want to be someone's friend you start hanging out with them...If you want good grades you study for exam...If you hurt someone and you are sorry for that  you apologize...And what isn't clear to you..?Babe I wasn't enough to you, was I..?