Love is strange

Can't take this anymore

It's one of those nights...It's one of those night when you only want to scream, to cry and cry and throw everything out of yourself...But no matter how long you cry you don't feel relieved...You just feel like you are trapped inside a cage and there is no exit...You are trapped in your own thoughts and you can't help yourself...You need to scream but you know you can't...All you do is stay quiet as possible, bite your lips and hug your pillow so no one can hear you crying...It is 3am and I can't stop thinking about him, about everything...I just remember how shy you were when you asked me for relationship...I know  that you loved me I just know it...Why these days only stupid pride is important and not love...?Why we lost each other for no reason...? Why can't we talk and solve our problems...After all it was nothing special ,the only problem was you behavior... You could change it if you wanted ,but hey you were so stubborn...Every time you repeated that everything is fine and the problem started to grow bigger and bigger...I still love you after all...I mean you were so nice to me at the beginning and there is no reason to hate you my baby...I really miss your voice...When you were hugging me and telling me that you love me...You weren't aware how happy I was...Words can't describe how much I miss you and love you...I miss that excitement that I got inside me stomach every time I would see you...I also miss the way that you made me smile and cared about me...I miss our long kisses when both of us ran out of breath...I miss the way you looked into my eyes and smiled so cute...Do you miss me ? Do you want me like I want you...? Do you cry every night and pray to God to be with me again ? I miss our stupid conversation while we were waiting for someone to pass so we could start kissing again...Do you still love me ? Do you look at our photos and think "wow that was amazing day" or you just continued with your life like I didn't even exist ? I have a lot of questions in my head but no single answer...