My Light in the Darkness

Back.

I was stopped when I saw the blood. It was scattered along the curtains, our carpet was bathed in it, our couch holding only some of it. My legs didn't even feel like they were supporting my body anymore. My breathing almost stopped when I walked into the room.

Laying on the floor was Auntie and Uncle. I almost collapsed to the ground when I saw them. I fell against the door frame before letting the scream claw through my throat.

I covered my mouth so they weren't so loud. I didn't want anyone coming back to finish the job.

Slowly, I pushed myself off the frame and inched closer to them. My vision slowly blurred with my tears, but I wouldn't stop.

Finally, my legs gave out from underneath me.

I punched and screamed at the ground, cursing whoever did this. I cursed myself for not trying to get back sooner, I cursed my auntie and Uncle for not leaving the house soon enough, hell, I cursed out the government for putting us through this hell.

I pulled her on to my lap, hudling over her body as I begged her to not leave me. Her eyes were open, the light once in them was gone, replaced with the terror she must have felt before murdered. I cried till I couldn't anymore, my tears falling into her blood caked hair and onto her cheeks. I pulled her closer to me and rocked her back and forth.

"I'm sorry," I croaked, "I'm sorry I left, for not being good enough, strong enough to make it." I ran a hand through my hair, gripping a handful before I pulled on it. I needed to feel something- anything just so I wouldn't go numb. It felt like barbed wire was tangled around my neck. I couldn't breath, but my voice, my screams, begged to be let loose. "I hope you didn't worry for me. I hope you knew I would make my way back. I'm-" I couldn't. My words crammed in my throat and my head spun with everything I wanted to say.

The suns rays shone through the curtains and into my eyes, telling me the sun was almost down. Reluctantly, I put auntie back next to Uncle. I placed a kiss on her forehead before my eyes landed on Uncle.

I took my fingers and gently closed his eyes. Knowing they would never open to see the sun, never see myself or my sister again, to never lay his eyes on the love of his life, broke me. I leaned over him and gently placed my lips on his forehead like I did anutie.

"Thank you," I muttered against him, "for always looking out for me, teaching me how to survive. Thank you for being my father figure." I wiped away the tear that fell onto his skin, and pushed myself off the ground.

Before I left the room, I looked at them. "I promise, I will find whoever did this, and make them beg for mercy." I swore it on my life, on everything I loved, even if it was all taken away from me now.

Time didn't seem real as I walked towards the front door. The hallway stretched out infront of me for as far as I could see. They say it's possible to die from heartbreak, but my god I felt like I was dying. My heart was tightening so much in my chest I felt like it was going to burst. I couldn't see right, I could barely breath and my fingers were digging into my chest to rip out the very thing that gave me the ability to feel.

I crashed against the walls, stumbled over the broken vases and picture frames. I was a mess.

I ran as soon as I got out the door. I coud barely see where I was going but I knew the way. I made sure to watch. I've never ran so fast in my life.

All I wanted was to feel safe and secure. I knew I had to go back to camp, it was the only place I knew was safe, was the only place I would be welcome.