My Light in the Darkness

Im sorry

I sat on my bed just twirling my fingers together.

Was I really about to do this? Leave the one place I have left?

If I didn't I would only wonder what could have happened, if I maybe could have stopped all the killing, even if I could ever find Gabby and Gerret again.

I had too. My bag was already packed and sat beside me, calling out to me to just run. Run like I always did.

I reached down to grab it, when someone barged into the tent. "What are you doing?" Zach demanded. I looked at him with sad eyes.

I wouldn't lie to him. He didn't even want me around anymore. "Leaving." I said simply.

I wanted to crawl in a hole and never come out. The look in his eyes made me question everything I was doing. "Why?" He asked. He was hurt, it was written all over his face.

To do this, I needed him to hate me. I couldn't walk away when I had a chance at whatever we had. "Why do you care?" I bit at him. I didn't want to be rude, I wanted to bring him in my arms, kiss his lips and tell him I'd never hurt him. But here I was, doing just that.

He bit the inside of his cheek. His lip would quiver if he didn't. I know because I saw him hold in his cries. "Because I care about you," he sighed.

"That's not what you said back in the training field," I shrugged like it was nothing. Inside my heart was bursting in my chest. Why did it feel like a break up? It didn't hurt this bad when I broke off Jake. Then again, I didn't love Jake the way I love Zach.

Love Zach?

Yeah. Yeah I think I loved Zach.

"I was mad. The way you helped Jake-" he broke off like the mere thought broke his heart. "It was like you still loved him," his voice was small. It reminded me of a child who had done something wrong and was trying to apologize.

"Zach," I cooed, getting up from the bed. I walked to him and grabbed his face in my hands. I rubbed his cheek soothingly as I looked him over. "I did once, when we were younger," I said honestly, "but I can't love him anymore."

"Why?" He pressed on.

"Because he got selfish and harmful. I couldn't stay with someone like that. I hate him, Zach. More then you do." Regret. That's the only thing I saw in his eyes. "But now, I have to go and fix things," I told him.

"What things?"

I sighed, taking my hands away from him. "Things my family started. My dad knew this was going to happen so he tried to stop it. He knew secrets the government thinks I know and they won't stop hunting me till I'm dead. I can't stay here."

"Yes, you can." He cut in. I just shook my head. I looked to the side of him. The night sky was slowly starting to light up and I knew I had to leave soon.

"Staying here puts you all in danger. If I can get to Washington, get to them before they get to me, then maybe I can put a stop to all this." I grabbed my backpack and slung it over my shoulders. "I'm not asking for your help, Zach. I'm asking that you let me leave and forget this ever happened."

The words crushed me. I didn't want him to forget me, but he had too. I could die out there and never see him again, but if I lived I wouldn't be able I stand the thought of me being nothing to him.

His eyes held the same cold stare he had the first time we met, his body was rigid and unmoving. I looked away from him and stepped around his body.

"Forget you?" He chuckled softly. "Abby, I would never be able to stop thinking about you." I hesitated when I got to the door. What was he saying? "You know why?" He asked, turning to face me. He walked closer and closer till his nose touched mine. "Because I love you." He breathed.

The air in my lungs was knocked out, My feet felt like cement bricks and my heart felt like a sludge hammer banging against my chest. He loved me? He said I was nothing and now he loves me? That's rich.

"I love you Abby and I would follow you to the ends of the earth just to make sure you're safe." He ranted on. "I can't forget my light in the darkness."

"Zach-" I tried. I didn't know what to say. I wanted him to come with me, but he couldn't leave his people and I couldn't put his life at risk. He didn't let me try and talk again. He placed his hands on either side of my face and skimmed my lips hesitantly.

"I have to leave," I breathed quietly. He knew it was pointless to fight it.

"Then let's make this a good one," he sighed in defeat. He pressed his lips against mine in such a longing way that it made my knees weak. His lips were slow and tender, begging me to stay with him.

I pulled away when I needed air. He held me there, placing his forehead on mine and panted heavily. "I'm sorry," I mumbled, before I left him. 

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"Let's go." I said as I walked up to him. He was dreading this, I could see it. I unlocked his chains and helped him down.

"Why such the rush?" He snickered. It irritated me how alike we were. He was just as excited for the rush as I was.

"I'd rather stop being hunted, if that's alright with you." I snapped. I was stressed with the Zach thing and now I had to leave and it was all just overwhelming.

His hands shot up in defence. "Just curious, cupcake."

"If you want to live through this," I laughed, "stop calling me cupcake." He just laughed and walked out of the dungeon. It was going to be a long ass trip.

We walked out, only being temporarily blinded by the brightness. No one was awake yet, except for us and I guess Zach, but he was no where to be seen. I thanked him for letting me go peacefully.

We didn't say a word, me and Jake, just started our journey in an uneasy silence.

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Sorry for not uploading sooner!! I'll make two chapters to make up for it😆