Your Are My Everything

she consumed my mind

            I slowly walked into school, not really knowing what to feel about the situation. Felt that I should be mad, and feel betrayed, but I just felt confused. I didn't know what to say so I just avoided him in the halls on my way in and went to math class.

             Math class was ok, I didn't really pay attention, I was just staring at her. She was wearing a baggy grey hoodie and matching sweatpants. She caught me staring a couple times so I had to look like I was paying attention to the teacher, but it was so hard because she was there, and she looked beautiful. Just being there, and her eyes, her eyes were fucking gorgeous.

             The hour passed by way too fast , and so did the rest of the day. I stayed quiet all through lunch, and just went to bed when I got home. I truly had no idea what to say or what to think because my lavender haired girl was the only thing that consumed my mind.

                I felt wrong but had no other words, and couldn't stop the thoughts going through my head, so I passed out at 4:30 thinking of her. And later dreaming of her, she was just perfect, I wanted her, so very much. But it was wrong so I let it go and did my morning routine with absolutely nothing but her on my mind. I headed out the door and walked to school fantasizing about her, and what she would wear today. As soon as I arrived I saw my boyfriend walking towards me, and I stopped dead in my tracks.

James saw me and walked over. "Vanessa! There you are! I was looking for you all day yesterday, are you okay?"

I saw the look in his eyes and decided confronting him could wait a little longer, lying, "Yeah, I'm fine, just wasn't feeling well is all."

"Oh! Okay, I just got a little bit worried there." James said.

The day went by, with nothing but her on my mind, but time had flown by. And sooner or later the time had come to go meet James's parents.

James got out of the Jeep and walked over to her side, opening the door for me and offering her his hand. "You ready?"

I took his hand gingerly, "I guess..'

James walked me inside and introduced me, sitting her down at the dinner table. "Mom, dad, this is Vanessa, Vanessa, this is my mom and dad."

James' parents greeted her and then returned to their meal.

James looked at me, "hey are you alright baby?"