REAL ONE

Graduation Day

Shyla's POV: I woke up this morning with a huge smile on my face. I was so happy today is the day I graduate college. Besides the fact that I worked so hard to get to this day, I was happy because I was gonna have so many people who loved me watching me graduate. I never ever thought I would have anyone there to watch me graduate except Sabrina and my Uncle Mac. I heard my phone buzz on my nightstand and my smile got even bigger because I knew it was my good morning text from Kentrell. I unlocked my phone and read his text it said: Good morning Beautiful! I hope your having a good morning so far. Today is your big day and I'm so proud of you love! I can't wait to see you later!  I love you my shy girl! I smiled at his text message and I texted him back thank you and that I loved him too. I got out of the bed and went to the bathroom to pee, after I got done I headed into the kitchen to make some breakfast. I decided since it was a big day and it was going to be a long one I'd better eat a big breakfast so I decided to make eggs, bacon, sausage and pancakes. After I was done making my breakfast I poured myself a glass of orange juice and sat down at the table to eat. I scrolled through Instagram as I was eating and I saw that Sabrina, Kei'anna, Ms. Rhonda, my Uncle Mac,  Joe and Nicki all posted pictures of me congratulating me. I commented thanks underneath all of them and kept scrolling. As I continued scrolling I saw that Boomer, Drake, Boosie and Wayne all posted pics and congrats as well. I swear my heart was so full I never ever thought my life would be like this especially with all that I have been through. I mean I'm graduating college, thanks to Mr. and Mrs. Smith I get to realize my dreams of owning my own bookstore, I have lots of family now who loves me, I'm slowly but surely gaining more confidence in myself and loving my self a little more everyday. Not to mention I have a man in my life who adores me, believes in me and supports me no matter what! I feel like I'm dreaming sometimes but to know that this is my actual life now is crazy to me. Still in the back of my mind I know that this is my life were talking about here and it never fails just as soon as I get over one hurdle another one comes my way. Even though the DeAndre situation is over, I still have to deal with the Black situation. Not to mention I have been thinking about my mom lately wondering where on Earth could she be and wondering if she was okay or if she was even still alive. For some reason I think Black may hold the key to that information but I'm not sure. I decided that for today at least I'm going to push all of that out of my mind and focus on me and my accomplishments. I was taken out of my thoughts when my phone buzzed with a notification from Instagram saying NBA YOUNGBOY posted a new picture to his page. I clicked on the link and it was a picture of me and him making silly faces at the camera. I giggled because I remember the day we took this picture. We were at his house bored with nothing to do so we just decided to start taking silly pictures together. After that we had a pillow fight, played tag, hide and seek, I taught him how to make chocolate chip cookies and then he became the tickle monster and started tickling me. I ran from him and he chased me to his room. I fell on the bed and he tickled me some more, I was laughing so hard. Then he stopped and kissed me, Kentrell had kissed me plenty of times before but this kiss was different, he started crying after this kiss. I asked him why he was crying and he said it was because he loved me so much. He said he never thought he could love again after what happened with Nisha but to know that he could made him so happy. He thanked me for showing him true love and for loving him for Kentrell and not for NBA YOUNGBOY. He told me when I got shot and I was in the hospital that he was so scared he was gonna lose me and that if he had lost me he wasn't going to be able to go on and he probably would have killed himself just so he could go to heaven and be with me. When he said that I started crying myself. He said that he had never prayed to God harder before in his life except for when he lost his Grandma Alice, he said the two of them were so close and she supported him no matter what and that if it had not been for her encouraging him to rap and let out his feelings  he would be dead or in prison right now. It was the first time he really opened up to me about his grandma and how much she meant to his life. I assured him that she was looking down from heaven watching over him smiling at the man that he had become. A man who was there for his family, friends and everyone who loved him. He showed me a picture of his grandma and he looked so much like her.  He told me that he thanked God everyday for me and that I was his blessing from God. He kissed me again and we cuddled and took a nap for awhile before we both woke up hungry. We decided we wanted pizza and wings so he ordered pizza and wings from our favorite pizza place The Pizza Shack. After the Pizza got there we ate and had what we called a hood movie marathon we watched Menace to society, Juice, Belly, Belly 2, Baby boy, New Jack City, Paid in full and Boyz in the hood. Kentrell even wiped my tears when I started crying when Ricky got shot. We had so much fun together that day, not like we don't always have fun when were together but that day it was just different. I smiled then I burst into tears when I started reading the caption he wrote it read: Dear Shyla, today is your big day, the day you graduate from college. I am so proud of you for everything that you have accomplished and so proud and happy that you are realizing all of your dreams. I know that you are going to do great things and I'm so happy I get to be here to watch it all. I want to thank you for always being there for me weather it be helping  me in the studio, listening to my hopes and dreams, making me laugh, making me smile or just giving me a shoulder to cry on. Thank you baby for being my love, my rock, my heart, my world, my shawty,  my best friend and my everything! I can't do life without you babygirl and I don't plan to. I can't wait to change your last name one day! Shyla Maree Gaulden that has a nice ring to it! Congratulations! I love you my Shy Girl, always and forever! Love Kentrell. @ It's Shyla Maree # Always and Forever! # The only girl who has my heart! # My best freind forever! # This is why I love you! # Future Mrs. Gaulden!💜💜💜💜💍💍💍💍 I was crying like a baby at this point, the comments started blowing up and they were making me cry even more. I swear his fans were the greatest. I commented on the pic: Thank you for all your love and support baby! You mean the world to me  and I don't wanna do life without you either baby! You got my heart always and forever baby! I love you Kentrell Desean Gaulden! 💜💜💜💜💍💍💍💍 I closed out of Instagram and finished my breakfast. When I got done eating I washed my dishes and got ready to go take a shower on my way to my room the doorbell rang. I answered the door and it was a delivery man holding flowers. I signed the slip he gave me, gave him a tip and took the flowers from him. They were sunflowers my absolute favorite. I smelled them and they smelled so beautiful. I took the card off to read and see who they were from and of course they were from Kentrell. The card read Congratulations on your graduation I love you my shy girl! I swear this boy always knows how to make me smile. I placed the flowers on the table and went into my room to get ready. I was going to get my hair, makeup and nails done. I would normally have Sabrina do my hair and make-up when I get those things done but she was swamped today and I understand  she is fantastic at what she does. Sabrina has a gift I'm telling you! Since Sabrina couldn't do my hair and makeup Nicki came to my rescue she flew out her hairstylist and makeup artist to do my hair and makeup. Nicki is the bomb.com I'm telling you! I'm so glad Kentrell made it a point for us to meet she is just a really awesome freind and she is so down to earth nothing like the media paints her out to be. I turned on my speaker and turned on Spotify. I turned it to a mix station and the first song that came on was Beyonce Party. I immediately started dancing as I stripped outta my cloths and climbed in the shower. I swear I was in such a good mood today nothing or nobody was going to kill my mood today! I stayed in the shower for 20 minutes then I got out. I dried off and did the rest of my hygiene. After that I lotioned up with Coco butter and  went to my closet to pick out an outfit. After much thought I decided just to throw on something that was cute but also described how I was feeling today. I put on this shirt: