Jonah's POV
I only wanted someone to be mine. I wanted valentine's day cards and flowers, chocolates and birthday wishes. I longed for someone to cuddle and kiss, to shower with love, and most of all, someone to be proud of and belong to. I only wanted someone to love.
But no. Of course not. Why would I, of all people, deserve that? I thought I tasted love once, but it didn't last. It would never have lasted. Loyalty, trust, and thoughtfulness are some things I lack when it comes to dating. But with Daniel, it was different. He was caring and gentle. I loved him. At least, I thought I did.
Now I see him standing with another boy, laughing. It's scary to me how fast he's moved on. I'm still heartbroken. I wonder if he ever loved me or if he was only using me to get closer to another boy. Whatever his reason, he hurt me and I don't know if I can ever forgive him.
"Hey Jonah." It's Zach; we've gotten a lot closer since the boy's we liked go together. He was in love with Jack, but Jack never noticed. That's how it always is for boys like us. We fall in love, but just get burned.
After Daniel broke up with me, I spent days crying in bed; without him, I didn't know who I was. I thought I had to have someone who loved me so that I could love myself. Now I know better. If he can move on so quickly and not feel regret for breaking my heart, then I can move on in due time without feeling bad for him.
Still, seeing him with another boy breaks my heart. I still love him, no matter how hard I try not to. And I hate myself for that.
"Hey Jonah, want to go grab something to eat?" asks Zach.
"Yeah, sure," I say absentmindedly. Anything to get away from him. Daniel and Jack fit so well together, it makes me jealous. They do everything together. Daniel and I were so dysfunctional, their relationship seems like paradise. They fit together so well. I can tell Zach thinks the same thing. And maybe he and Jack would have worked, but Zach never spoke up. Now here we are, both alone with broken hearts and no means to fix them. I sigh. How did I get here?
A/n: still don't know if anyone is actually gonna use this but if nothing else enjoy a very very very short chapter :3
