𝒲𝒾𝓉𝒽 𝒴𝑜𝓊 (𝔻𝕚𝕩𝕚𝕤𝕠𝕟)

Chapter 7 - Addison

  I've never truly been able to accept myself for who I am. My whole life I was told that being gay was wrong and that I should never like a girl in a more than friendly way. But I always tended to notice the girls more than the guys, I learned quickly not to vocalize those thoughts though.

  I was around the age of 5 whens I had gotten my first crush. The thing is, my first crush was actually on a girl. Her name was Chloe, and I, being young and naive, decided to tell my mother about her. She yelled at me for an hour straight. She told me it was disgusting and that I should never say something so ridiculous. From that day forward I pushed down all feelings I had for girls.

  I dated multiple boys in the hopes that it would hide the fact that I'm gay. It was miserable but it worked. At some point I even convinced myself I was "straight", that was until Dixie came along.

  She left me speechless the first time I met her. I was a stuttering mess, I completely embarrassed myself. Dixie being Dixie, just giggled and smiled at me. I hadn't felt like this about someone in years, it terrified me. But I once again pushed down all my feelings for her.

  We became bestfriends almost instantly but I didn't mind. She was kind and funny, and she even became one of my new favorite people. It got easier to ignore my feelings for her and I was just able to enjoy our platonic relationship. That quickly changed though.

  When she started dating Griffin I was crushed. I told myself that I was just upset because we would be hanging out less, but deep down I knew their was more to it than just that. They lasted a few months but once they broke up, this is gonna sound horrible, I felt relieved. Griffin wasn't a terrible guy, I was just jealous.

  My feelings truly blossomed when she started ignoring me. Once again, I was destroyed. She was my bestfriend and she wouldn't talk to me even though nothing had happened. I still gave her space no matter how much it hurt.

  I had feelings for her, more than one should when it comes to friendships. It wasn't until now that I realized that the fuzzy feeling in the pit of my stomach was coming from Dixie. She was the only person who could completely disorient me with one look. When she was in pain or distress I felt it too, because what she felt I felt.

  So when I saw her run into the house, abandoning Nick in the process, I got worried. I quickly excused myself from the small group I was in and went on a search for Dixie. Once I finally found her, the sight that lay before my eyes broke me. She kept muttering "stupid" over and over to herself. Her eyes were glassy and a pained look was present on her face.

  "Who's stupid?" I asked. I could tell that I scared her slightly so I tried to say it in a joking manner and even smirked at her. She said "No one, it's nothing." but I could tell she was lying. She kept refusing to look up from the ground.

I tried to talk to her more and get it out of her but she wouldn't budge so I stopped trying. "Do you need anything?" I asked one last time. "No, I'm good." she replied. I went to walk away but I was stopped. "Please stay, don't leave me Addi." said the younger girl. It broke Addison's heart, she looked so vulnerable.

Dixie was never one for emotions and Addison knew that, so something definitely must've happened to get the girl to this point. Addison sat next to the girl and pulled her into her lap while wrapping her arms around her. It was silent and both girls appreciated it.

"I'm sorry." Dixie said quietly, it was mostly muffled by my shoulder but I could still hear her. Followed by that I could feel a warm wetness on my skin. "Hey, you didn't do anything wrong, what's going ok?" I said as I gently cupped her face in my hands and wiped her tears away.

She just cried even harder. I hugged her even tighter and whispered sweet nothings into her ear. "Dixie, you can trust me, you know that right?" I said to her once she had calmed down slightly. She just stared at me in response, her mouth was slightly agape and she had red puffy eyes.

Even after crying she still looked beautiful. Dixie was breathtaking to me, no matter what, she always looked perfect to me. I made the mistake of looking down at her lips which didn't go unnoticed by Dixie. It felt like forever as we sat there staring into eachothers eyes, only breaking eye contact to look at one anothers lips.

Suddenly Dixie's lips were on mine in a frenzy, I didn't react at first but I quickly kissed back. It was everything I had always dreamed of her. Her lips were soft and plump. They tasted of coffee and rasberries. Our mouths moved together in perfect sync, almost as if we'd done it a million times before. I had my arms still wrapped tightly around her waist and her hands gripped my face.

It was a passionate kiss, every emotion I'd been feeling recently was poured into it. By the end of it we were both red in the face and breathless. My heart pounded against my ribcage and I was almost certain she could hear it. "Woah." Dixie breathed out. "Woah indeed." I said.

We both sat there staring into one another's eyes again. It felt like nothing could ruin this moment. It was our time, I finally felt complete. Like everything had finally gone into place and was right. "I love you." Dixie muttered. It caught me by surprise but I knew exactly how she meant it.

"I love you too, Dixie."

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  Sorry for updating late, I made so many drafts but they kept not coming out right. So how'd I do, was it worth the wait? Also thank you guys so so much for 1k reads, i know it's not that much but I still appreciate it so much.