A Dauntless Kind of Love

Eleven

Eric's POV

I had known for a while that something was off but I hadn't guessed this. I hadn't exactly rooted it out either.
I am madly in love with Kraven but I also know that I have a duty to my faction.
"Eric I didn't know before the test. I'm sorry! I didn't chose this! I don't want to be this! I just want to be Dauntless." She tells me and takes my hands into hers. But I rip my hands away and she looks at me wide eyed and scared. what was I supposed to do? "Eric I'm so sorry." she tells me and I watch as tears flow freely from her eyes.
I pull the gun from the waist band of my pants and hold it at my side.
She spots it and then tightly closes her eyes and she nods.
"It's ok Eric. I know you have to do it."
My jaw clenches as I mentally fight myself. Do I follow my head or do I follow my heart? And which one is right?
I'm pulled out of my thought process and back into reality when her hand takes mine, the one holding the gun, and she brings it up to her head.
"It's ok. I know you have to do it." She takes a deep breath, her eyes still closed, and nods her head slightly. I get ready to pull the trigger, my finger is on it and I see her lips tremble as she takes a deep breath. "It's ok Eric. I love you." Her eyes open and they lock on mine.
"Get out." I say between gritted teeth as I lower the gun.
"But Eric..."
"Kraven now! Damnit leave before I change my mind!" I yell at her and it hurts me to see her pained look but I know it's what's right. She runs out the door and I know I should have killed her. I should have ended her life.
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Kraven's POV

I ran. As hard and as fast as I could. I didn't know where I was going but I couldn't stop. Not now. Not after what had just happened. I lived my fear. Eric was going to kill me. the gun was pointed at my head and his finger was on the trigger. But maybe he isn't letting me live. Maybe he just couldn't do it and he is going to have someone else do it. I'm still going to die.
"Kraven? What on earth are you doing out here?" I realized I must have slowed to walk. My father, Mikael was staring at me confused.
I looked around and saw I was on the outskirts of the dauntless compound. I shouldn't be out here.
"Is everything ok?" He asked me and I nodded. "Then why are you crying?"
I quickly wipe away the tears and he gives me a sad look.
"I'm fine dad. I guess I just got lost in my thoughts. What are you doing out here?" I asked, trying hard to change the subject. Who knew, this might be the last time I speak to my father.
"We were testing the boarders and ranges." His words mean nothing to me because o have no idea what he is talking about. "Come on Kraven. We need to get you back." I nod and then notice he wasn't alone. There were two other Dauntless members not to far away.
"I can get there. you finish what you were doing." I tell him and he nods. He gives me a hug and then I hurry back the way I came. It was dinner time now but I wasn't hungry. How could I be? Tomorrow was final test and I was afraid to fall asleep because I didn't want to die in my sleep. Four. I have to tell Four. I walk into the rec and I find him sitting alone so I hurry over and sit across from him.
"What's wrong?" He asked, knowing right away that something was off.
"I told him." his eyes go wide and his face turns to panic.
"Kraven. No." He shakes his head but I nod.
"He was going to shoot me but he didn't. I'm scared Four. What if someone comes for me in the night? I don't wanna die." Tears break from my eyes before I realize they are falling. Four reacts quickly, taking my hand and leading me out of the rec.
"You are staying here until the test tomorrow. Do you understand?" He asked me as we walked into his apartment and I nod.
"Thank you Four. I don't know what I would do with out you."
"You're like my sister Kraven. I'm not going to let anyone hurt you." Four pulls me into a tight hug and then pulls away. "You look exhausted, try to sleep." I nod and he walks out of the door. I hear the lock click and I sigh. what have I done?