Chapter Fourteen: Feenin'

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"I can't, leave you alone....you got me feenin'..."

DEVANTE POV

I know I've made some fucked up choices in life, but ya'll gotta believe me when I say I'm not the same person I was back in '91. It's 1993, and Jodeci is back in full effect. Serafina and I speak, but we ain't together. I've been banging these groupies, but I can't lie....she's got me feenin'. Nobody can touch me, speak to me, or love me the way she can. It's taken me some time to get myself together, but I know that I can be the man she deserves. I want her to be mine forever, but I need to work on me first. Turning over a new leaf, I went to the tattoo parlor with Dalvin.

Dalvin: Yo, what are you gettin?

I smirked as my artist, Lizard began detailing my back. After 4 hours, Lizard finished and I stood up in the mirror, looking at the tattoo of Serafina's face on my upper back. Dalvin burst out laughing.

Lizard: I thought you weren't getting anymore tattoos, dawg. She must be special.

Dalvin: Bruh, you are crazy as hell for this. You think she gon' take you back because her face is tatted on you? Nigga....

Lizard: Feenin' ass, I feel the same way about my wife. Been married to her for ten years now, and I hit it from the back every damn day. 

I burst out laughing hard as shit. I know I have a long way to get her back, but I'll do what I have to for her. 

TWO DAYS LATER....

I've been busy writing, mixing, and producing our group's second album, "Diary of a Mad Band". And yes, the entire album I wrote about Serafina. I know that a break-up is supposed to be a sad time, but for me, it makes me more driven to do this album. 

In order to promote our album, we went on the Arsenio Hall Show and performed "Cry For You," which was our first single. It goes a little something like this....

 [Intro, spoken]

Without you baby
I feel worthless
I'm livin on the edge

[Verse 1]
It's been an hour
Since you've been gone
And that's too long
So come back home
I can't live without you
So i'll cry for you
Do anything that I can
To feel that touch from your hand
Sorry that I want you
Lady what do I do

[Bridge]
You know you're everything I do
Ooh yeah
Do what you want me to
I would do anything
Get on my knees for you
Ooooh, baby
What else is there to do
I don't know, I don't know
But i'll cry

[Hook]
Lady, I will cry for you tonight, tonight
Yeah
Lady, I will cry for you tonight, tonight
(Well-l-l, well)
Help me out
Help me out, yeah

[Verse 2]
You spoil me girl
Like a child
When you're not here I can't even smile
I can't think without you
My mind is always with you
It's amazing what you do
To keep me falling in love with you
Girl you all that I know
Where else can I go

[Bridge]

[Hook, extended]
Lady, I will cry for you tonight
(Ohhh, ohhh, no, no, no)
Lady, I will cry for you tonight, tonight
Help me out baby
Help me out baby, yes
I don’t know how else to say it
I don’t know what else to say
(K-Ci help me sing it)
(JoJo, I’m right here, yes I am)
I will cry for you lady
Sometimes my pillow gets so wet with tears
I don't have no one to call my own
I want you back baby
Ooh yeah

[Verse 3]
Baby I’m begging, baby I’m begging, begging, baby
(Said I’m beggin’)
Baby I’m begging, baby I’m begging, begging, baby
(uh, Lord have mercy)
(Say I’m begging)
Baby I’m begging, baby I’m begging, begging, baby
(I just can’t take it no more
I don’t give a damn anymore, baby)
Baby I’m begging, baby I’m begging, begging, baby
(Come back, come on back)
Is there anybody out there know what I’m talking about
Somebody, anybody)
Jodeci, let me here you say, YEAH-a, a, ah

[Outro]
Baby I’m begging, baby I’m begging, begging, baby X 6

When we got backstage, I went into the nearest bathroom and cried. I know it's my fault we aren't together, but I love that girl. I want her back, but I don't know what else to do....

Dalvin: Bro! You good?

Me: Leave me alone....

K-Ci: He in the bathroom crying like a damn baby, gone and get back with that girl. 

JoJo: Shut up man. 

I wiped my face and cleared my throat. I gotta get it together. 

Our album was released on December 21, 1993. It hit number 8 on the Billboard 200, and number 1 on the R&B Charts. People say it's even better than the first one. As much as I wanted to enjoy the success, I couldn't because Serafina was on my mind!

By mid-February 1994, I was in greater spirits when we released our second single, "Feenin'." This is my personal favorite, and for obvious reasons.....

SERAFINA POV

 Aye! It's 1994, and the future looks bright! I bought a Jeep Wrangler, got an apartment with Miri, and we're just two young college girls who are single and sexy. I was driving back to L.A. to visit my family and the crew. Miri turned on the radio and this song began to play

Hit me. 
All the chronic in the world couldn't even mess with you.
You're the ultimate high.
You hear what I'm saying, baby?
Now check this out:

Take my money, my house and my cars.
For one hit of you, you can have it all.
Cause makin' love, ev'rytime we do, girl,
It's worse than drugs, 'cause I'm an addict of you.
And you know that I

I can't leave you alone.
You got me feenin'.
I can't leave you alone.
You got me feenin'.
Girl, I'm feenin' for you. 

Said I'm feenin' for you. 
I don't mind. 
It's all on you, baby.
Girl, I'm so strung out.
All I do is wish for you.
So, tomorrow if you're not here,
then girl, I'm down, so I need you near.
I just want to make it through the night,
so hold me tight, then girl I'm all right.

I can't leave you alone.
You got me feenin'.
I can't leave you alone.
You got me feenin'.
Girl, I'm feenin' for you. 

Lady, I'm hooked on you,
There's nothing else I'd rather do,
spend my last dime for a drop of your time.
Surely, girl, without a doubt you know you got me strung out.
And I need you more and more, 
'cause you are my joy.

You got me feenin'.
I can't leave you alone.
You got me feen in'.
Girl, I'm feenin' for you. 

I can't leave you alone.
You got me feenin'.
I can't leave you alone.
You got me feen in'.
Girl, I'm feenin' for you. 

I can't leave you alone.
You got me feenin'.
I can't leave you alone.
You got me feen in'.
Girl, I'm feenin' for you.

When that song ended, I died a little inside. He wrote this song about me!!! I felt flattered, but scared too. What do I do???

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