Josh's Girl

Just another day💫

I left the hype house and drive down to the sway, once I got there Josh greeted me at the door with a kiss.
Josh: welcome home baby
Nessa: awe thank you
He hugged me for a while, I ended up staying there last night with Charli and Avani so he had been alone all night. Although I'm sure him and Jaden were just fine without me. I brought my clothes into our room and put them in the laundry basket. I took ours, Jadens, Bryce, Anthony's and Kios stuff down to the laundry room. I don't really mind being the only girl because then I'm more protected. I finished laundry and went back downstairs to cook some lunch. I look out the window to see all the guys(except Kio who is out of town) in the pool. I take my lunch and bring it to the counter. I go upstairs and out on a swim suit so I can tan and go out to eat my lunch. I sit in the sun, the beams feeling amazing on my skin. I then don't have any sun as I look up to see Josh pouting for a bite. I gave him a bite and he jumps back into the pool. After finishing my lunch and tanning for a bit I go in and shower. I heard the bathroom door open which I was use to because the boys always go to the bathroom when I'm using it.
Nessa: occupied
I said jokingly, I was washing my hair so I was rinsing out the shampoo. I zoned out as the soap washed from my hair. I enjoy to feeling of being clean so I take each step slow. I turned around to the other side of the shower to get some conditioner and felt a cold breeze that made my spine tingle. I felt two hands grab my waist and someone kiss my neck. I turned around to see Josh. He reached over me and grabbed his shampoo, he began to put some in his hair. I froze, I've seen him naked but he's never seen me.
Josh: new sight huh baby
Nessa: I-I yeah
We finished up our shower and got dressed for the day. Even though getting dressed was just PJs. I was putting on some simple makeup as I saw josh put a letter on our bed. He walked out after kissing me on the cheek, I walked up to the bed and read the note.

Nessa,
You are gorgeous, clothed or not. Do not be afraid anymore
I love you
               Josh

He truly is so sweet. I finished my makeup and went downstairs, I curled up on the couch and ended up falling asleep. I woke up to Josh playing with my hair, he had put my head on his lap as he was watching a movie.
Josh: hey
Nessa: hey
Josh: I picked you up some food, it's on the counter
Nessa: thank you
I got up and picked the bag up and went back to sit with josh. He put his arm around me as I ate my food.
Nessa: where's the rest of the guys at?
Josh: they all went out of town for the weekend, it's just gonna be us
Nessa: yay
We finished the movie and I ended up goin to bed. Josh told me he would be there in a bit. I put one of his sweatshirts on along with with some spandex. I tied my hair in a messy bun and off to bed I went. I didn't really remember anything because I was so tired that day. My dream was fine until it turned to a nightmare. I couldn't wake myself up from it and I was so scared.
Here I am just living my life and all of a sudden I just can't breathe. The room just gets smaller and I feel the room spinning. I wake up finally to Josh holding me tight in his arms.
Josh: it's okay baby I'm here
I'm sure he could feel my heart racing but it didn't matter. I was fine and alive with josh and that's all that matters. He kissed me and I went back to bed. I'm so glad to have someone like that in my life, everyone saying we weren't going to last from our senior year, saying he was only using me. They were wrong, it's been almost 3 years now and he's just as perfect as when I met him. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. He's the perfect one for me and has never shown me otherwise, his beautiful eyes, perfect smile, amazing body, sweet personality. It's just the perfect man. My ex would never treat me this way, it was like dating Addison. I was lied to manipulated, made fun of, shamed, abused(mentally and physically) cheated on. But josh saw me. He didn't see the next Instagram model or the hottest tiktoker. He saw me. For ever and always will I be happy to be with this boy. I love him.

857^^^