Matters Of The Heart.

Trapped In A Cage.

Kelsey's P.O.V.

After I had brought Grissom down to lab and into is office and got his hands fixed, he was immediately swarmed with people. People wanting to know things that we didn't exactly have the answers to, and currently he was in the meeting with the 'higher' ups trying to explain why I hadn't brought this to anyone's attention before.

Honestly I wasn't worried about it, I thought that it was just some random creep wanting to scare me. I thought that he would stop, never had I guessed that he was more dangerous than I could ever imagine. He had targeted women who looked like me, who had things in common with me. Essentially this all could of been avoided if I would've known. I caused the deaths of these women. I could've done something to help them, anything, but I hadn't. I was to busy trying to run away from my problems, to busy running away from the fact that Everytime I got a new package I felt weak and helpless. Just like all those women felt before they died.

"Kelsey?"

I jumped swiveling around, I saw Gil standing at the door. "Yeah?"

He took closed the door and "Are you alright? You were out of it for a little while?"

I plastered on a fake smile. "I'm fine, What are you doing back so soon?"

He leaned against the door, his arms crossed. "I have to get a file and then I'll have to go to a different meeting," He took a breath as he ran one hand through his hair. "It'll probably turn into a double shift."

I sighed, looking down at the floor. "Of course it will be. They want answers."

I jumped when I felt his hands encase my own, before he crouched down in front of me. "Honey, Are you sure you're okay?"

I gave his hands a light squeeze. "I'm fine, Gil."

"Then why won't you look me in the eyes when you say that?"

"I just can't." I sighed.

"Can't what, honey?"

My vision blurred as tears filled my eyes. "Lie to you like that."

"Oh Kelsey." He breathed, and before I knew it I was on the floor with him wrapped in his arms.

The short string I had on my emotions snapped and before I could blink I was crying into his neck. I cried for the lose of those women, I cried because it was my fault they had to die in such a horrific way, I cried for Gil, I cried for myself.

"Shh, I got you. Everything's going to be alright. We'll catch him. He won't hurt anyone else." Gil whispered into my hair, as he rocked us to and fro.

His soft voice only made me cry harder. If it wasn't for me, he wouldn't be worrying about anything. He would happily be doing his job, going on with life as he had before I ruined it with all my mess. With my Stalker.

"I'm so sorry." I whispered over and over through my tears.

Once I had quieted enough, Gil pulled back slightly one of his hands coming up to cup my cheek. He rested his forehead against my own before he spoke. "Kelsey, Listen to me okay? None of this is your fault. He would have killed those women anyway. He is a sick and sadistic bastard who gets off on hurting other people."

I clenched my eyes shut. "That's where you're wrong, Gil. He wouldn't of hurt those women if I would of acted like an adult instead of a child. I could've opened the boxed and I would have known that it was more serious than I could ever imagine. I could've stopped him Gil, it's all my fault that those women died the way they did."

A growl worked its way out of his throat. "No! Do you honest think that? He killed those women before he even sent you those boxes! He was here. I've been working on this case nonstop since he started killing them Kelsey. That was six months ago! There wasn't anything you could've done to save them. This is his game. This is what he likes. He is trying to make you feel guilty and install fear so he can get you."

His words did nothing to calm the storm that was raging inside of me. I knew it was my fault and nothing he or anyone else said could change that fact. No matter how much I wanted them too.

A knock sounded at the door. "Grissom?"

Gil's eyes stayed locked with mine as he answered. "What Catherine?"

"We've got more news. But I don't think you're going to like it." She answered, furry laced her tone.

"I'll be there in just a minute. Does Kelsey need to come too?"

"It's up to her, But it would be better to break the news to both of you."

My eyebrows shot up at her words, My heart beating frantically in my chest. I couldn't be a part of this. I was to emtionally involved. Gil looked just as perplexed as I felt.

"We're coming."

--Author's Note--

Hey guys! Sorry this is such a short chapter and that's it's been so long since I last updated!

I needed this chapter to be shorter than the rest so it would all make sense in the next one ;)

What do you think is going to happen?

What has the team found out?

K.T. :D