Pull me closer || Yoomin ( Taekook, Namjin, Sope )

We're even now.

Jimin pov

All I could think of was the ways in which I can kill myself. How can I be that stupid? He just wanted to comfort me. Why did I kiss him! I don't regret it completely though, it was nice, his taste. But now I may never get another chance. I ruined it. I am such an embarrassment. I didn't wanna do anything. I just sat in my bedroom, holding my knees, crying to myself. I wanted to cut myself again but, I noticed the bandaid. His face flashed before me. I couldn't do it. I just hugged a pillow, cried my eyes out and thought about the kiss.

I didn't have the guts to face him at school today. Shit. I promised to treat him! No. No. I don't wanna see him. It will be too awkward. Thank God, my dad was not home. So for once, I stayed home peacefully, took a sick leave and daydreamed about Yoongi. I was almost falling asleep and suddenly heard my doorbell ring. I'm screwed! Omg, is dad home early! I'm fucked. I tried to cover myself in blankets, pushed out some tears and thought it's the best idea to pretend that I'm sick. The doorbell kept on ringing. My dad always had a spare key, maybe he lost it? Anyway, I grabbed the keys and slowly opened the door, praying that he wouldn't hit me. It was not dad. It was something worse. Yoongi. Shit. There is no escape. Why is he here!? Is he gonna beat me up? Tell me to stop disturbing him? What am I gonna do!?

"Jimin, are you alright? I was so scared! Did you cry? I'm so sorry Mochi, I didn't mean to. Why didn't you come to school? Are you sick? Did you forget about your promise! Treat me to lunch!" He said, walking into my house. Wow. I just stood there, thinking of how bad I look. He entered straight into my living room and sat down. He looked so good in those black jeans and hot red shirt. I can get nowhere near him. He is probably feeling bad or he is here for free food. "I'm fine hyung, I was just a little tired. I'm sorry about yesterday, I shouldn't have done that, I'm sorry, I'll go get dressed" I said and ran up to my room, threatened by his beauty, I couldn't stand there a second more thinking of how ugly I look.

I immediately put on a white shirt and a pair of jeans to match him. I parted my hair neatly to one side, letting the bangs fall on my eyes. I slowly went down those stairs and by it's end, was my prince. He was just looking at me. He didn't blink. He didn't say a word. He waited until I reached the floor. He didn't break eye contact. His eyes were magical. I could feel my ears turning hot red.
"Jiminie, why are you so beautiful?" He said. I blushed a little, tried to hide my smile and moved out of the house and made sure that I locked the door. I couldn't take him for lunch as I promised as it was already past 6. Dayum. It's dinner, can I call this a date!?.

We tried to have small talk, completely avoiding what happened yesterday. Why is this too perfect? This is not right. I don't feel right. I'm gonna fuck up everything somehow. I took him to the nearby Panda express and we sat across each other. I ordered fried rice and Beijing beef for myself and he wanted to have some Broccoli beef. It was kinda nice and awkward, at a restaurant, having dinner with my crush. It all felt like a fairytale. His left hand was on the table the entire time. I really wanted to hold it but I didn't wanna mess this up, again. We joked about school and he said that Jungkook is just a kid who is hit hard by life and is actually a sweetheart once you get to know him. But I found it hard to believe.

Yoongi pov

Please, hold my hand already! What is your problem! Do you want me to tell you that I like you! I'm a stubborn ass, I can't do it. I tried complimenting you, tried to make you smile, tried to hold your hand, even tried to touch your legs with mine but you just ignored me! Don't you get the signs! I like you, dumb idiot. I was getting really frustrated but I tried my best to stay calm. Why is he like this? I knew that he didn't wanna talk about that kiss but I wanted more. I wanted to know everything about him but he was busy stuffing up his face and he didn't even look at me the whole time. We cleared up and he paid for the food even after I insisted to pay. He is really really hot when he acts manly. My heart almost stopped when he came down those stairs in his huge house. It was breathtaking. He really did fall from heaven.

Wow, the night sky was beautiful today. There were lesser cars on the streets and the moon looked more beautiful than the stars around the pitch black sky. We didn't say a word...Jimin was walking slowly behind me. What is he thinking? Did I offend him? Doesn't he like me? Was the kiss just impulse? He was walking at least four steps behind me, with his head low and dragging his feet. Is he sad? What's wrong with him?. I couldn't take it anymore.
"Jimin, what's wrong? Why aren't you saying anything? Why aren't you walking with me? Did I offend you? Did I say something wrong? Did your dad hit you? Did you cut yourself again" I asked, trying to hold his hand to look for any new cuts. But he just pulled it away and looked straight into my eyes, angrily. I think I'm in so much love, I've never cared about anyone as I did for him. I turn soft every time I see my angel. I could feel his holding back his tears before replying to me." I'm alright, hyung ,why are you pretending to be so nice to me? I don't get it. I told you that I am gay and I kissed you. I fucking kissed a straight man and today you are here pretending that it's alright. It is not. It is really hard for me. I really am falling hard for you. I liked you from the first day my eyes met yours. The more you ask and care about me, I'm falling harder and I couldn't get up from this trace, from the hope that one day you'll see me the way I see you. But it is impossible. You are the most perfect human I've ever met and I'm an idiot who deserves nothing. I'm a waste junk. I don't know why I thought that you'll choose me over your girlfriend. I know the reality. I want to stay away from you. Why are you not letting go? Why do you always chase me down? Why are you giving me hope? I'm an idiot. I feel so embarrassed and hurt and worthless, I just wanna kil-" I kissed him. I pushed him towards the wall, my hands immediately took his face and I kissed him as hard as I can. I kissed him like it was the end of the world. I kissed his plump, pink lips till I could taste every inch of it and he finally kissed me back. Pulling me harder towards him. Fuck. This felt better than my first kiss with siera. This felt better than everything I've ever experienced anything in my life. This felt better than life itself. It was so intense. I wanted it to never end. But I felt him going breathless, so I moved back. I looked straight into his eyes that slowly opened. He was blushing so hard. His face was warm and wet with those tears. His lips finally turned to a smile. Wow, he really is an angel. I gave him a quick peck on his lips again and he smiled. Harder. I wanted to be the cause of his smile, forever.

"We're even now," I said and he smirked. Damn you Park Jimin. You made me fall in love. How am I gonna sort it out!? How will I deal with Siera now? What will I tell my friends? But at that moment I didn't think of anything else. I tried to touch his hand signaling him to hold it, that bitch didn't. Is he still scared? So I held his first. He looked at me and bursted into a cute little smile and intertwined his fingers into mine and I felt something going down my spine. It was special.Just me and my Mochi in this peaceful night. Sharing our very first kiss, holding each other and blushing. It is a very beautiful night indeed.