"have you ever grieved someone so much that living doesn't feel real anymore?"
somedays i feel like not ever waking up, like going to sleep forever would be a better option than worrying about waking up the next morning. and i'd like to think that it's not about just waking up one day and simply not wanting to live - more like enduring every day is too much of a burden to bare. because i'm exhausted and everyday feels the same. i'm bored and days go on for weeks at a time, it seems. and though i may love living and i cherish every bit of my friends and family [because i know every day is a gift of new opportunity, a chance at a better day]. but sometimes it's just far too much to endure, to wake up every morning and live each day only to go to sleep once again. so yes, you might just say that every single day i grieve over the life of someone - the life of myself - to the point of not wanting to live, not wanting to live so much that there's no joy in living anymore.
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escapril '20
Poetrysome more poems every day in april! here's yet another collection of poems i wrote for (almost) everyday in april. from the writing prompt challenge by savannah brown on instagram (@letsescapril).
