When I'm Gone

CHAPTER 18

CHAPTER 18:Letters

Cepheus Pornue

"Cepheus is that you?" napatingin siya sa doktor ni Zafira na biglang dumating. "How are you?" lumapit ito sa kanya

"Bakit mo hinayaang mangyari to sa kanya?" hanggang ngayon parang wala parin sa sarili si Cepheus dahil sa nalaman niya. Hindi parin niya matanggap ang nangyari kay Zafira at ayaw niyang  tanggapin!

"I'm sorry Cepheus. It's her decision."

"What do you mean?" nakakunot ang noo niyang tumingin sa doktor

Imbis na sagutin ang tanong niya, binigyan siya ng dalawang nakasobre na sulat. "It's for you. From Zafira. She gave that to me and she said na ibigay ko raw sayo. " inabot niya ang isang sulat

Dear Cepheus,

When I first saw you, irritation coated all over my body. I was very pissed off because of you. I thought you are a jerk and you are the king of  being a bullshit. Pano ba naman kasi, bwenisit mo ko nung una tayong magkita but when I bumped into you in the hospital, you let me realize how life so important at unti-unti kong nakilala ang tunay na Cepheus Pornue. Your different from your brother kasi ikaw, hindi ako sinasaktan at hindi ako pinapabayaan. You are caring, loving, understanding and handsome man that I've meet in my intire life. I am so thankful to have you, Cepheus. And I would like to say that I'm sorry kasi di ko kayang tumbasan ang mga binibigay mo. Your too much for me. Ayokong masayang ang mga panahon mo dahil sakin. You can live for a long time habang ako, nabibilang nalang ang araw dito sa mundo. Don't waste your time to a girl that can't pay you back like me. Masasayang lang ang pagmamahal mo sakin kasi mawawala ako.

But I would like to say thank you. Thank you for all. For taking care of me, for keeping me safe, for making me happy and for loving me. I am so thankful to have like you. Thank you very much. I hope your okay and I hope you can live long. Promise me that you will live your life to the fullest. Don't waste your time because time is gold and life is precious. Cepheus, when I'm gone, take care of your self. When I'm gone, don't you ever get suicide and when I'm gone, always remember that I am still loving you. Cepheus, take care of my heart. I am giving that you as a sign of my love. You gave everything to me kaya ibibigay ko rin lahat sayo kahit yung puso at buhay ko. Ibibigay ko sayo. Binigay ko yung puso ko sayo kasi gusto kong dugtungan ang buhay mo kahit ang buhay ko ang kapalit. Sana huwag mong sisihin ang sarili mo sa pagkamatay ko kasi mamamatay naman talaga ako, pinaaga ko lang. Sorry kasi di ako nakapagpaalam sayo ng personal. Kailangan na kasing i-transfer ang puso ko sayo kaya hindi na ako nakapagpaalam. Dito nalang sa sulat na to ako magpapaalam sayo. Cepheus, I will never forget the memories that we build together. I will keep those memories until my last breath and I will love you even if I am in a grave.

I love you always, Cepheus, and promise me that you will use my heart with full of love and happiness. You'll read this when I'm gone and your reading this because I'm gone.

The girl who love you the most,
Zafira Hydra Luvdale