The L Diaries

April 18th, 2020

I haven't wrote here in awhile, but I think this is a great way of expressing ones feelings and emotions.

These past couple days have been easier. I have found myself not thinking of him.. which to me is success. It means I'm able to move on and I'm able to see life and the future. It just sucks the way it all ended..

I loved the guy. I really did and I never got the chance to tell him. I will forever regret that, but I will get through it.

I'm doing the no contact thing for 30 days.. not speaking, texting, looking at any of his socials or anything. It has given me the chance to work on my own being and I've been working on myself.

I have been doing some graphic design work and some other little side projects and it's been pretty interesting.

After the 30 days are up though is when I actually make a decision where do I want to talk to him or not.. I've been thinking about sending this message

J,
I hope this message finds you well and living your best life. I bet you're enjoying the new house and I'm happy you were able to live out that dream. Jorgan must be loving all that yard space! haha

I was thinking about you today, looking out over the water.. I know things didn't end up the way we thought they would and I apologize for not communicating better. I understand if you don't reply to this and have moved on in life, but I hope you have been finding what you're looking for.

I'm happy we were able to share wonderful memories together and that we tried giving the relationship and us a go. If you need anything from the east side of the state, you know where to find me. Give Jorgan a hug for me 💛 -L

I think it would be all worth it at the end.. it's to extend a branch out to know he still means a lot to me and that I do still care about him.. so I hope he replies, but if I don't get anything back I will be okay with it too because he has moved on haha

So with that being said I'm going to bed! Night!