The last time Zayn went to his home in Bradford things didn't go that well and let's just say he said some things he didn't mean to say.
*START OF FLASHBACK*
Zayn's pov:
It all happened when i heard that Harry was dating cawmile and i got pissed off when safaa kept asking me about me and gigi and why she wasn't here with me.
I might or might not intended to say the truth but i were fed up with everything and i couldn't take it anymore.
I slammed my hands on the table feeling angry "IT'S BECAUSE I LOVE SOMEONE ELSE OKAY!!!? AND THAT SOMEONE ELSE IS A GUY NOT A GIRL, A GOD DAMN GUY AND I'M TIRED OF HIDING THIS AND ACTING ALL HAPPY FOR THE SAKE OF EVERYONE'S HAPPINESS WHILE I'M DYING FROM THE INSIDE!!!"
They all gasped, doniya eyes went wide dropping her spoon on the table, mom almost fainted and dad was just sitting on his chair, his face pale looking like he just saw a ghost.
To my surprise waliyha eyes widened in shock, she looked around the table at everyone's face then smirked at me and continued eating while safaa was looking at me unfazed.
I stormed out the kitchen with wide eyes, i can't believe i just told my family that i love a guy.
my heart was pounding in my chest so fast that i can hear it in my ears, oh no i'm having a panic attack.
I couldn't breathe normally and my vision went blurry, tears falling down my cheeks, i fell to the ground on my knees ,my hand on my chest.
all i heard after that was mom screaming then everyone was standing around me.
Doniya held my face in her hands saying something to me but i didn't hear anything i just felt numb and then everything went black.
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I woke up in my bed still feeling numb and the first thing i saw was mom crying next to him.
"Mom" I said trying to sit up a bit .
"Sonshine, my baby are you okay?" She said kissing my forhead.
"I'm fine mom just another panic attack" I said sighing and wiping her tears.
I looked at the floor "are you mad at me?"
She hesitated for a second but smiled at me taking my face in her soft hands "of course not sonshine, i love you too much Zayn you hear me? Now i didn't expect you to say all that and I'm trying to process it still but nevertheless i'm not mad at you and I'm relieved you told us the truth, somehow I had my suspicions about you and gigi, I had a feeling that you two weren't actually really in love, she's a sweet girl and you look happy with her but nevertheless there's always something missing in your eyes when you're with her, I should have known it sooner, i'm sorry i didn't do anything soon, i just thought i was imagining stuff, I just wanted you happy that's all, it must have been weighting on you for so long, I'm sorry baby"
I smiled hugging her tight, she was always by my side loving me and supporting me no matter what and for that I'll always be grateful
"Well do tell me who's the lucky man? Do i know him?" She asked excitedly trying to lighten up the thick atmosphere and i chuckled.
"Yeah pretty much, you even like him i think" She frowned her eyebrows "and who that might be?" I looked down avoiding looking in her eyes.
"H-Harreh" I said feeling embarrassed admitting it out loud.
