I'M BACK!! 💛💚
I'm sorry for the late update guys but here you go!! 😘
Read the previous chapter to remember what happened💚💛
Zayn's pov:
"I missed you"
Harry looked up at me surprised with wide eyes.
"I mean" I cleared my throat "i missed us, talking, laughing like we used to when we were in the band"
He looked down at the beer he's holding in his hand and i can see sadness in his eyes.
"i missed you too" He said smiling at me his eyes softening.
I decided to man up a bit "i'm sorry i left like that without saying goodbye" I didn't look in his eyes when i said that.
I didn't want to see the disappointment in his beautiful emerald eyes, i know i wouldn't sleep the night.
He looked away again playing with the sleeve of his sweater "and i'm sorry that i couldn't make you happy enough to stay"
I immediately looked back at him frowning "It's not your fault Harreh, it's me, i left because of me, i needed this, i needed a chance to breathe, to feel alive, i needed to leave for my sake"
"Were you this unhappy? Was it too much?...... I know you were going through a lot and we had it rough but was it enough for you leave me just like that?" His voice became so small in the end.
"I know we fought a lot in the last month and we said a lot of things we didn't mean and i probably acted childish and made a horrible mistake but i didn't think you'll ever leave like this....like we were nothing.....like i meant nothing to you" He said his voice cracking as he gulped down a sob that was threatening to come out.
"Harreh, look at me. it's not you, you aren't the reason i left, it's quite the opposite really"
I huffed a bit looking at the black tv screen "you were one of the main reasons that made me stay in there that long in the first place".
"Then why did you leave me behind like tht then? you didn't just leave the band Zayn, you left me too" He said a sob escaping his quivering lips and I knew a dam has broke down inside him.
He looked so hurt and vulnerable like this with tears selling up his eyes and i wanted nothing but to just hold him in my arms forever and tell him how much i love him still.
I avoided his gaze not knowing what to say ashamed to even look in his eyes cause what he said was right, i shouldn't have left like that breaking everything between us, what we had fell apart right in front of me and I didn't have it in me to try to put it back.
"I really really wanna punch you in that perfect jaw right now you fucker, i tried to hate you for leaving me like that ......for making me like this... but i couldn't..... not when i knew what you had to deal while in the band"
"I guess not everything is about me Huh?" Harry said now chewing on his bottom lip and i swear to god i just wanted to kiss him right there and then and protect him from the whole world.
"Are you okay now? You're eating well?" He said wiping his teary eyes away with the sleeve of his sweater rubbing his red nose and sniffling a bit.
God how can he be so sweet like this after all this ,i would've punched me in the face if i was him.
And Holy shit he still cares.
"i'm fine now and yeah i'm eating well"
"Good" He said sitting up a bit and looking around.
"She's not coming here right?" He said looking anywhere but my eyes.
I immediately understood who he was talking about.
"She is in paris doing a fashion show"
"Oh okay" He said nibbling on his wet red lips and blinking, small teardrops still stuck to his long eyelashes.
His beautiful red lips are gonna be the death of me.
I didn't want to ask him about chamomile, i don't want to hear how happy he is with her now.
He slowly stood up walking to the window and i was shamelessly staring at his hairless smooth long tanned legs.
They are clean shaved.
His long legs were something i was obsessed with ,they make him look like a model.
Even gigi can't compete with that.
i immediately snatched my eyes away hoping he didn't catch me staring.
What i'm i doing comparing my ex bandmate to my current girlfriend?
Harry reached his hand out the window to feel the raindrops on the palm of his hand, it was still raining heavily and so windy, calmed down only a bit but the weather reporter still warned us it will get worst by the afternoon, harry's sweater (mine actually) raised a bit putting his back dimple and his smooth skin on full display to me.
He has the smoothest skin i have ever touched.
And he looked so irresistible in that pink sweater, his curls making him look like a princess.
Yes princess not prince.
he used to love when i called him that.
I still remember the first time i called him princess, it was when he first wore a flower crown a fan threw on stage back in 2013.
he looked so beautiful with long curls, sparkling green eyes and the cutest smile and dimples singing and dancing carelessly on stage.
He went crazy dancing and jumping around and doing his not so "family show" mmove, teasing me and making me get hard on stage, I had to look away.
He just smirked at me seductively sticking his tongue out cause he knew what he was doing to me.
He always did.
So when we went back stage i corned him against the dressing room wall and told him that he looked like a princess with the flower crown and his long soft curls.
he just giggled pushing me away and said he wanted to go to the bathroom and run away from me leaving me smiling to myself.
It was also the same night he told me about his secret.....well more like showed me.
And let's just say things weren't the same since that night in the hotel room.
OMG guys so i'm back yay 😀😁
i was away for a bit cause i was taking a rest, it sucks to have anxiety so i've been meditating and chilling with my family a bit and the zigi news kinda made everything worse than it already is.
So yeah let's not talk about it.
So i'm fine now and i'm back for good and i finally have the motivation to complete this story.
So.
You think things are gonna be okay from now on guys or? 👀
Zayn checking harry out is just 😂😂👌 i mean i would as well if i saw Harry like this.
And i have a little surprise for you guys in the next chapter 😌😏
What do you think of Zayn so far?
What do you think of Harry so far?
Any guesses about what is Harry's secret? And what do you think Harry showed Zayn? 👀
I just wanna say a massive massive Thank you to everyone reading and thank you for all the support and love and sorry again for the late update.
If you still reading than i just wanna say i love you 😘
I'll update next chapter soon 😘
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