Swallowed pain and horrific experiences, the young girl battles with never knowing where she is or what she's done the young Kim Jaeun feels life getting increasingly harder as she slips into the depths of numerous mental health illnesses.
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I want a way out please
Jaeun POV
As I got out of his grasp I quickly tried to make my way out. But the foot steps that trailed behind me got faster . I couldn't stop panicking as my heart raced.
As I was just there, reaching for the door handle . I felt my head bang onto the wall behind me as his face was in close proximity to mine .
I could practically feel his breath fanning on my face. As I looked up at his eyes pleading him to let me go . But instead of letting me go he smirked .
As his face got closer and closer my heart raced making me panicked . He leaned in closer and closer . His lips leaned in he started to move his lips against mine. Trying to provoke an action from me . I started to squirm.
He got annoyed at me as he harshly pinned both of my arms with one of his .
I started to pleading and pushing him to give me space . Dissatisfied he grunted not pleased with the response I returned . He went lower and lower.
At this point I couldn't control the tears as the screams just replayed in my mind . I tried to ignore them but they became louder and louder . My heart started beating faster and faster to the extent where my body couldn't keep up. Breathing started to get more and more difficult and eventually I just stopped .
Flashback
As a child Jaeun was always well behaved . She had lots of friends at school and she performed extremely well at school.
However that all changed one day . Jaeun's aunt and her family had came back from Australia to South Korea. She didn't think much of it at the start .
They had went over to greet them for a little reunion party . However this party started to get bitter as she came to meet her cousin Song Jaehoon .
Jaeun being nine years old was a polite well mannered person . They were sitting around a table . Until your aunt scanned the room .
"Oh where's Jaehoon ?" She asked . " I better go and call him." She said starting to get on her feet.
My mom replied " It's fine unnie , Jaeun- ah can you go and call your cousin please ?" my mom asked as the attention was now all on me.
" That's fine Eomma " I replied with a smile . " what a well mannered child. " my aunt said patting my head .
" Don't be in a rush honey, young can get to meet your cousin a bit better." My aunt shouted as I was running up the stairs.
I knocked politely on the door until I saw ....
My cousin being 16 was a normal thing but I obviously didn't understand as a nine year old .
Suddenly he saw me . He didn't even hide it . He was masturbating. Clueless I just stood there. " Oppa aunty called you to go downstairs." I said smiling innocently.
His hand was still at his crotch not wanting to let go of the pleasure. " Chaeun can you help Oppa out please?" He aske while a smirk was plastered on his face .
He gestured for me to come closer until I was right in front of home . " Chaeun just copy what I do okay." I nodded .
He started to stroke himself as he stared letting out moans . He gestured me to do the same , so I did . He started throwing his head back and moaning .
I was happy that i was pleasing him . But this was the idea of trying to make parents and peers happy with you. I was all too innocent and slowly that was ripped away without me even knowing .
But never did I guess this was only the start.
6 years later
I started to self harm as the truth started to fall apart. I was trying to release all the anger on myself as I started to think lower and lower of myself .
My cousin had succeeded in making me cower under his dominance that he craved for so much.
I never knew this was a problem any single bit of it . The feeling of sanity slipping away as I felt like the control of my own body was no longer in my own power. It was no longer options .
One day as I was self harming again my dad walked in as I winced in pain . He quickly ran over worry flushed over his face . " Honey , why would you do this to yourself ?" He said in a manner that made me feel guilty.
I looked down not able to look at his eyes. I- ......
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A/n
Hi I hope you enjoyed this chapter . There were some sensitive topics in here .I am sorry if I had offended anyone I promise it wasn't my intention. If there was any false information please tell me .
