I was diagnosed as bipolar disorder in 2017, in my 15.
After one year I quit highschool and started homeschooling.
2019, in my 17, I was in private institute for KSAT(An exam for college acceptance in here), highly closed place which make teens study for 15 hours per day without any human connections.
Isolated routine with pressure of passing college didn't fix my disorder,it only made my mind darker and darker.
At that time I realized why people need connections, so in September of 2019 I started to observe people on internet.
I've never enjoyed small talk before then.
In October I quit every social activities on internet and committed to studying.
November 14, my 18th birthday, finally I had my exam, and it was disaster.
I screwed up math so it blew up opportunity of getting into reputable college.
It was so dark in December, until I received acceptance message from current college.
I thought everything will be great since I got in college back then, even my mental issue.
