5. 11. Had first therapy session.
I went clinic far away from home.
My mentor introduced her colleague as therapist.
It was first time to go there to get therapy, I was been there a lot for tarot classes, interviews but not therapy.
I talked about an anecdote of self harm.
How drinks arouse self harming desire?
She said my unconscious mind showed up on surface.
And she also said it's alright to show my unconscious mind up.
She spoke figuratively about her university times.
According to her, she thinks that she made big pile of shit in her university times.
"I want to clean that pile of shit, but I couldn't. Because it's so big that I can't take it back!"
Bit of rambling....but what the most impressive was her speech about ego.
She said "People's egos seem marveling and flawless in distance like glass marbles. But those have a lot of scratches. You could hide scratches, yet, why not we can accept whole glass marble itself?"
Will I accept whole part of my ego......not sure. One day at a time....
