The Life Of A Dalek

The fleet

There was fighting. There was killing. There was hate. There were near misses. There were last minute escapes. There was everything a dalek would love. I am a dalek. I loved it.

Daleks are not supposed to love, but when you get down to it, we love hating.

Our fleet was sent off on a mission. Of course, our missions are always quite similar; kill, gather information, destroy the Doctor if you get the chance. We were on our way to a Cyberman planet, to another war. It was all going well, but we located the TARDIS (the Doctor's ship) and, upon seeing a potential opportunity to kill him, we followed.

Predictably, we ended up on our way to Earth, which was getting us off track by a long way, but it would be worth it if we could destroy The Oncoming Storm. I had no imagination back then, and now I have developed some, I think it was stupid of us not to see it coming that the Doctor would notice us following him.

He arrived a few minutes before us, which was all the time he needed. When we landed, we stalled for a few minutes trying to locate his TARDIS. We didn't even see him before he managed to sneak on board and plant a bomb. By the time we had located the TARDIS it was dematerialising, and there was a ticking in the background. Then there was the explosion.

I am still lying in the pile of rubble left over from the ship. I have no way of moving, all my systems are down. I don't know how I survived, it doesn't matter, with a bomb as weak as the one the Doctor used, there was bound to be a survivor or two. That's his weak spot. He can't bare to damage the things around us, especially if it's Earth. He thinks that this planet is 'innocent' and doesn't deserve to get blown up with the rest of us. I am not complaining though, because if he didn't have a weak spot we wouldn't be able to use it against him.

I have sent out a distress signal, but it has not been answered. It makes sense, why come back for only one soldier? It's harsh, but it's convenient. According the my system clock, and the sequence of day and night on this planet, I have been here for 17 years. 18 in two weeks. It would sound like a long time to a human, but for a dalek it is simply time. I have almost finished repairing myself, and I am hoping to be able to cause some trouble here soon. I have no idea where abouts on Earth I am, but it is snowy all year round so I am assuming quite far north or south. At least I am left undisturbed, but my casing is cold which means it is difficult to fix myself. It takes time. But I have time.

I have a lot of time.

I have too much time.

All this time has been too much time. It has been getting to me. As I said, I have developed independent thought. It is bad. I cannot return to my fleet, they won't want me anymore. But then again, would they? If I can think, then perhaps I can hate better. Hating is all I do. But I fear that one day I might stop hating. If I am here much longer, I shall go crazy, but even that would be better than not hating. If you are crazy, then perhaps you can think better and kill more. Killing is all I was made for. It is all I ever will do. If I ever stop wanting to kill then I will kill myself, because if I can't kill then life isn't worth it.

Everyday I need to remind myself who I hate:
•The Doctor
•Everyone
Everyday I need to remind myself who to destroy if I get the chance:
•The Doctor
•Everyone that's not a dalek.

It is quite basic really, but I have nothing else to do. I wonder what other daleks are doing. Killing would be the answer. I wish I was killing, I wish I could hear the screams. I wish I could see the souls leaving the bodies. Not long now, hopefully, and I'll try to take over this planet, maybe I could attract some attention by doing that and get a lift to join some other daleks. Not long, I keep telling myself, not long. I could put myself into lockdown mode but I don't know how long I might stay in it. It could be centuries, I have no control how long I will be in it for. I wonder if any other daleks on the ship I was on survived. That would certainly make it a lot easier. I shouldn't think like that though, one dalek should be able to take over a planet easily enough, that is what a dalek is; deadly, powerful, pure hatred.

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Ik this is not the best introduction but trust me it gets better.