Monachopsis (Bnha Villain Reader)

Chapter 7

"Yeah, I cry over simple sh*t. Got a problem?"

A week had passed since your arrival and your classmates were still unwilling to talk to her. Midoriya tried engaging conversations with you but was shut down each time. And frankly, you were fed up.

"So, L/n-San, I—"

"Shut up, Deku."

His smile faded and his facial expression turned to one of dejection. Along with him, you continued to ignore all your other classmates. The guy with glasses also tried to talk to you but, it didn't work out either.

You also didn't bother to take notes in classes. The teachers were a bit disgruntled but, they couldn't do anything about it.

The only person you talk to were Monoma, Kendo, Shiozaki, and Tetsutetsu. You weren't gonna make any more 'playmates' other than them because it'll be a hassle when you come back to Dabi, and Tomura.

It was then lunch rolled around when you got excited. "Hell yeah, I'm starving!" You exclaimed and ran down the hall, eager to eat Lunch Rush's five-star food when,

"Oof!"

You bumped into someone. "Ah, shit. Sorry 'bout that." Adjusting your neon orange jacket, (Which looks horrible on you by the way) you look up to see the same male who declared war, Shinso Hitoshi.

"No, no, it's okay. My bad. I was the one who wasn't watching."

"It's alright. I was the one running anyway."

A pregnant silence followed after that. What the hell am I supposed to say to him?

'Hi, Hito. You may or may not remember me but, I was your best friend back when we're kids and then I became a villain. So, how are you?'

OH HECK NAW!

While you internally panicking, Shinso took the time to study your familiar face before muttering out, "Y/n? Is that you?" Her panicking increased by a 100 to a 1000.

Fuck, fuck! FUCK! What the hell should I say!? Quick! He's staring at you! Okay okay, just pretend you don't know him and it'll be fine.

"Oh, uh, h-heeeey! Hitoshi! Long time no see?"

First-person POV

My internal self sighed and facepalmed.

I'm a dumbass...

"So, you do remember me?" I nervously sweat. Obviously this isn't what I intended to do. I already got enough 'friends' as it is. I can't be getting attached to them or else I'll hesitate.

But I guess I dug myself a fucking hole.. Meh, might as well lay in it.

"Of course, I do! Why would I forget my best and only friend? I'm surprised you haven't forgotten about me." Shinso chuckled.

"Yeah, but I haven't seen you in a long time. Where have 'ya been?" I started to sweat bullets. The ONE he couldn't have asked, and he asked it.

"Hehe. About tha—" He cut me off and glanced at my jacket. "And why do you have a prison jacket that says, 'Caution Villain?" He squinted his eyes at me suspiciously while I darted my eyes around the hallway, afraid to meet his piercing gaze.

"How about we settle this over a nice lunch first?"

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Here we are now, sitting at a table with our lunch in front of us, a tense atmosphere hanging around. "So, care to explain, N/n?"

The way he used my nickname was so menacing I might've thought he was going to kill me.

Taking a deep breath, I began to explain all of the things he missed out on. The bullying and me going missing for about two years. But, didn't tell him all the murders I committed.

"And? What happened after that? That still doesn't explain the reason you have that jacket."

Again, I told him about the life I was living while missing. Meeting Dabi and Tomura, though I didn't say their names, living in a cheap house, and becoming a villain. Still, I didn't tell him all the crimes and murder I did. All while I was babbling, Shinso never once looked up to meet my eyes and only kept his head down.

"So.. You broke our promise?" The single sentence he mumbled out made my heart flutter, yet ache at the same time.

"You still remember the promise we made?" He was silent for a moment before lifting his head up and flashing me a nostalgic smile.

"Why would I ever forget something as important as that?" The way he said it made my facial expression crumble, reminding myself that at least my only friend never forgot about someone like me.

"O-Oh, wow. You're - You almost made me regret joining the villain side.." My voice cracked as I held back my emotions. My hands gripped the edge of the table so hard my knuckles turned white.

He lightly chortled and took a bite out of his food. "So, how did you end up here? In U.A?" He implored, making me laugh. "Oh, funny story actually. I was..."

When lunch ended, I felt much relaxed, like some weights were lifted from my shoulders but, I was still uncertain.

Should I really get close to them? But I guess, I won't be lonely anymore. Still, is it worth it?

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"Are you planning on staying in U.A to be a hero now?" I sighed and shook my head.

"Sorry, Hitoshi. I'm a villain now. I'll probably go back to my friends." Shinso's clenched his fists.

"So, am I not your friend? Why not stay here in U.A? With me? Like old times.." I laughed bitterly.

"You know that's not possible, Hito. And, of course you're my friend. Best friend even. I just.."  He abruptly slammed his hands on the table, catching the eyes of a few students, making me sweatdrop.

'I kinda have this weird sense of Deja vu.'

"I can't lose you again, can't you see that? I'm not strong enough..." I lightly slapped him in the face. He held his cheek in his hand in slight pain.

"Don't ever say that, you piece of shit. The fact that you didn't break despite all the negative things they've said proves you are so much stronger than me. Far stronger... You better be proud you've come all this way without becoming.. Like me." I took a deep breath to calm myself down.

"Don't ever, ever, doubt yourself like that, okay?"

"That sounds kind of familiar, don't you think? You're so cheesy."

"Oh, shut up."

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I groaned at my choice of words as I entered my classroom and sat in my respective chair, when suddenly Aizawa called me to meet him outside of class. "Sure thing, Aizawa." He merely rolled his eyes at my Informality.

"Y/n, as of today you'll be attending remedial classes for heroes, every day after school." I did a double-take at his statement.

"WHAT THE FUCK!?" I cry out as Aizawa cringed at the volume. "Why the fuck should I take classes when I don't even have any intentions of being a hero!?"

"There is more to life than being a villain, Y/n. You don't know the consequences of what you're doing." I scoffed at his pathetic attempt of persuading me.

"Oh, but, I do. Society rejected all my plans of becoming a hero, so I built a new home with the villains as my family." Aizawa opened his mouth to say something, but I was quick to stop him.

"Do you really think enrolling me here would change my perspective between heroes and villains? They say that heroes always save the people in trouble, but I call bullshit. Where were you guys when I needed help? Where were you when the 'villains' were struggling? Huh? Listen here because I'll only say this once. I am a villain, and I always will be. And nothing can change that."

And with that last sentence, I ran away from him, and into the woods near U.A.

Damn it. ...I really am weak.