Things I Won't Lose - Station 19

From the begging

Sullivan POV
"Ok I will start from the beginning. I made my first mistake, when I arrived here. I should have open a bit more to all of you. I had to be in that stupid Aid Car accident to realise that I need other people, that I need friends. I did open up to you a bit more after that. I painted walls with you guys and I was boxing with Warren, but my legs weren't as strong as before the accident and not until we came back from Los Angels I realized that."
"What happened?" Probie asked.
"You weren't there, but the rest of the team probably remember that, before we evacuated, me and Herrera went out to patrol the neighborhood?" I said and the team team nodded.
"While we were out the situation got worse. Fire surrounded us and if we hadn't done anything, we would die there. I wanted to
kick the door down and that's when my health problems start."
"What happened?" Ben asked.
"I set my leg incorrect" I answered.
"Plus the door was reinforced" Andy added.
"How did you got out?" Probie asked again.
"Andy found the pool behind the house. We took off our gear and jumped inside. We stayed underwater until flames backed away." I said and everyone was shocked.
"You never said anything about it." Vic said.
"We didn't have need to tell you that. Continuing when we came back, my leg gave up and I closed myself from all of you. My first pain wave hit me in the Capitan's bunk just after we arrived." I looked at Andy, she looked really sad right now.
"What does it mean "first wave of pain"? Did you went to the doctor?" Dean asked.
"I went to dr. Koracick and he diagnosed me with CPRS. Do you know what it is?"
"Complex Regional Pain Syndrome. I'm so sorry Sir. You should have told me, I will do everything in my power to help you." Ben said.
"Can't you treat it  or something?" Vic asked.
"The operation is expensive and it helps only in 50% cases." I answered.
"Yeah, but department should cover it, right?" Ben asked.
"Maybe, but I would probably lose my job for 50% chances that it would help." I said.
"Why Koracick didn't give up any painkillers?" Ben asked again.
"He did, but I ran out of them. Do you know how it is to feel pain all the time and not be able to stop it. I couldn't take it anymore and that's why I stole fentanyl. I realized my mistake after I overdosed and saw Lucas."
"You saw Ripley?!" Vic asked.

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No new episode tonight :(. I hope this chapter will help you. 😘