mine and only mine | Jerek

Chapter 16

Hey guys sorry I didn't update just was upset about something but I'll get over it I guess. So here we gooo get ready you guys!

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Vivana's p.o.v

Justin is gone. And i'm sitting here at the table looking stupid when I should be really be trying to find him. But I just can't seem to have the courage to do it. I don't know why though. I guess because I feel weak and I think that I can't defend on my own. That's why I sended the police to look for him and I really do hope they find him.

Oh please be alright Justin. I don't want you to end up like Derek. Oh Derek I truly honestly missed you. I know you was a pain and you did things that I can never forgive you for but your my brother and I have to look through all your flaws and find the good things. So I forgive you I guess.

But enough is enough i'm going to make sure we find Justin if it will take my last breath.

Derek's p.o.v

Letter 2,550

Hey it's me again. look I know that I haven't been writing for a while when really it was just a week but I should be writing you everyday but I just couldn't bring myself to. Well as you can see or read i'm really upset. I won't tell you why because...I don't know but I do remember the first day I started writing you these letters. We were seven years old and well I didn't know how to express my feeling to you so I thought hey why not writing on paper? so that's what I did. And everyday I would write one expressing my feelings to you cause I wasn't allowed to say it to you plus we were to young. At least that was what I thought. But anyways I'm not gonna put this long as I got to do something so bye Justin I love you with all my heart and soul.

Love, Derek

I smiled at the letter and putted it in the envelope. After I finished sealing it shut I putted it with the others. Yes I write letters everyday for him and I know that he already knows that but I just wanted to write them. But when I thought about him my smile instantly dropped. Oh yeah..that's right. Justin doesn't remember me anymore. How did I forget when i'm the one who told Ramon to do it in the first place.

But is it bad to happy about that?

What?! are you nuts? there's NOTHING happy about making Justin lose his memory! What has gotten into you? did this get to your brain? Cause all your brain cells are failing to help you!

Well I never knew my conscious felt that way. So harsh and rude.

Well I wouldn't have to be if your dumb ass wouldn't have to be so stupid!

I rolled my eyes and ignored my conscious like i've been doing ever since I faked my death. It's been telling me how dumb I was and that I should just tell Justin i'm alive. But it's to late for that now. Justin doesn't remember me anymore and I want it to stay that way until i'm ready to face him when I give him his memory back. I don't know how but I'll find a way.

I then heard my phone ring and already knew who it was. I picked up it and pressed the green button then put it up to my ear.

"Hello?" 

"Thank you geez Derek you gave me a scare. Thought you got in trouble or something."

I wanted to scoff but didn't as I know he would hear me.

"What is it Ramon?" I asked wanting him to get to the reason he called. I don't got all day. Well I do but still I don't want to sit on the phone for hours listening to him talk.