PART 1
It is safer not to speak
For then there's less chance I'll start to weep
All expectations you did excel
Then dropped a detrimental bombshell
While our arms were interlocked
It's so startlingly shock
Going to nought from so, so intimate
Immediately we came to the end of the dance
Walked away without a backwards glance
Despairing – knowing for certain
We've suddenly come to the closing curtain
The future's now an afterthought
My body shaking with the effort
To stifle the mounting screams
The pressure's building like trapped steam
My throat is being wrenched to shreds
Tearing apart the pointless words I said
My mind ringing shrilly at sharp pitches
My stomach constricting into stitches
You confirmed every one of my fears
My heart drowning in unshed tears
While inside I'm crying blood
My heart has emptied gallons more than yours ever could
And the heat
Oh, how relentlessly it does beat
The boiling rage within
Burning, bright against my skin
Scorch away, evaporate the pain
All my efforts were in vain
The second and final chance is slain
By nobody but yourself, by nobody but you
How could you sacrifice the devotions we went through?
Not so dazzling anymore
Rather dimmed and sorrowfully sore
Pain can't be liquified
Or eradicated like insects with a pesticide
Oh, how I hate
This waiting game where I anticipate
The end
Drawing ever nearer
The right thing becoming clearer and clearer
The numbness being pierced with needles of nerves
It should be enough, my oeuvre
Eventually I'll find the one I deserve
You were and would have been
As perfect as anyone can and could have been
But that all went to bollocks
Because of that one unticked box
The last and most important
What a waste of months
What a waste of words
What a waste of poetry
What a waste
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Tales of Bygone Lovers
PoetryThis is the collection of poems and song lyrics I wrote during and after my first three relationships and one of my crushes. Although some of them will be soppy, all of them were written to help me express my feelings at the time. One of the only go...