჻ship; roadrat? more focused on jamison
჻word count; 1188
჻genre;extremely heavy angst
჻tw; mention of suicide, dark thoughts, blood
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Another reupload from my oneshots on a different acc!
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Based on the song 'out of love' by alessia cara
Phrases in italics are the song.
Phrases in normal text are the story.
Phrases in bold text are jamison's thoughts.
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I won't tell you I'm lonely
'Cause it may be selfish
Jamison Fawkes sat with his hands in his hair, grasping the locks as he could feel his chest rattle, every part of his body shaking as he let out quiet hyperventilations, tears running down his cheeks as angry, and quiet murmurs left him.
His mind screamed at him to calm down, that he'd be fine... He would grow, he would be okay after this... He just needed to let this go.
But he couldn't.
His heart pounded against his chest, almost as if it were a prison cage, and it screamed, and screamed as it echoed throughout Jamison's body...
GO BACK.
I won't ask you to hold me
'Cause that won't mend what's helpless
Jamison lowered himself onto the floor of his bedroom, his gentle crying turning into loud, heavy sobbing as he held onto himself. His heart pounded and pounded as he let words that were once spoken to him leave his lips.
He missed the touch of his lover, he missed the gentle caresses, he missed the firm grip of a hug... He missed everything about his love...
COME BACK.
There's not a thing I could say
Not a song I could sing
For your mind to change
Jamison's mind raced as he let out a scream, a scream that had been locked up inside for too long. He let himself fall against the ground, hands returning to his hair as he let out more cries, phrases such as 'Why didn't you tell me?', 'Why would you lie?', and 'I can't do this' left his mouth. Jamison rested his forehead against the ground, eyes fluttering shut as more tears flowed.
THIS ISN'T MY FAULT
Nothing can fill up the space
Won't ask you to stay
But let me ask you one thing
Jamisons head pounded as different possibilities raced through his head... Why...
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Why couldn't he have been good enough...
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Why couldn't he have seen it earlier
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He wasn't good enough for anyone. Not for Hana, not for Lúcio...
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Not for Mako.
IT IS MY FAULT...
Oh, when did you fall out of love, out of love?
Oh, when did you fall out of love with me?
YOU ARE READING
✗overwatch oneshots
Fanfiction»a series of short stories that include ships from the game overwatch« ─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ─── ✗roadrat ✗brigcy ✗gency ✗reaper76 ✗boombox ✗ouihaw ─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ─── »some oneshots may not be ship-based, only have small mentions of them, s...
