my life / / matthew espinosa

Chp.4

Matthews POV

I've got to be honest, Arabella was very beautiful. She must be very well loved and have many friends unlike me. I frowned.

"Why are you sad?" She asked. "I just have, well, problems." I said. She regretted asking that. "I'm sorry." She said. "Why would you be sorry?" "For asking you that question. I didn't want to make you sad or anything." She answered.

"May I have your number Bella?" I asked hoping if she would say yes. "Yeah sure." We exchanged eachother phones and putted in our number. "See you later beautiful." I said. She blushed and I walked away while she was standing there smiling like crazy.

When I left her, my dark thoughts covered my whole brain. Than I thought, my brightest thoughts occurs when I am near Bella. I should really talk to her more often because she is very nice and beautiful.

When my dark thoughts covered my brain, I ran to Walgreens and bought razor blades and pills. Nobody even likes me anyways so why not cut an eat pills? I am planning to eat the pills tomorrow.

Arabella's POV

Matthew, Matthew, Matthew. I can't get that boy out of my head. He was so broken. He wanted someone. He wanted someone to love him. And that person is going to be me.

I entered my house to be greeted by my mom. "Hey sweetie go freshen up because we are going to go to the our neighbors house today at 5:30!" My mom said. "Okay mother." I replied. I went to my room and entered my closet and took out my mint blouse and my denim shorts.

I entered my shower and took my LUSH So White shower gel. (Omfg I love LUSH do you?:D) After I'm done, I grab my clothes and change. I applied my eyeliner, mascara, and pinkish lipstick. I wear very light makeup because I don't want to look like those cake faced monsters.

When I was finished, it was currently 5:25. I rushed downstairs and putted on my blue gladiator sandals. "Let's go Bella!" My mother said. I was pretty excited and scared because I don't think the neighbors would like me. Thinks positive thoughts Bella.

We soon arrived at our neighbors house less than 20 seconds. It was like the size of my house. Small, but not to small. When we knocked we were greeted by a woman that was at her mid-30s. "Welcome to our house Mrs. Rose! I think the beautiful girl standing next to you is your daughter?" She asks. "Yes this is my daughter Arabella Rose. She is 16 and still looking for a man." My mom says. "Mom don't say that!" I said. "Ok ok." "And I forgot I introduce myself my name is Mrs. Espinosa. You may call me Lauren." (Idk matts mom.)

We entered their house and it looks bigger in the inside than the outside. It has stairs and much more. "Bella you may go to my sons room. He's 17 and I think you two will get along pretty well. And by the way, he has issues with other people so please help him I don't want my son getting hurt." She pleaded. "Ok Mrs. Espinosa."

I walked up the stairs and tried to find her sons room. Until I spotted a paper that says 'Matthew Espinosa' taped on the wall. Why does that name sound so familiar? I shrugged and just walked in. "Hey my name is Ara- Matthew?" I said. It was him. The one who was bruised up in an alley. And there he was, cuts on his arms and sobbing. Oh my goodness. I should've been there for him. "Bella?" He questions. "Is that really you?" He asked. "Oh my god Matt." I said. I walked over to him and hugged him. "Don't worry Matt I will always be here for you." I said. "Matt why would you do this?" I ask.

"People hate me. I did nothing wrong. When I first entered my school, I was immediately being called names. People threw paper at me, laughing at me, and giving me dirty looks. What is wrong with MY LIFE?" He asked. "Nothing is wrong with your life Matt. Your a completely normal boy. Matt, some people love you. Including me. I mean the love in a friend way." I said. I lied. I actually loved him more than a friend. His might seem crazy but I like Him even if I first met him. His expression changes when I said I only love him in a friend way.

Did he like me?