my life / / matthew espinosa

Chp.5

Arabella's POV

Me and Matt talked for a little while until he asked a question. "Do you go to (insert any school name)?" "Yeah I do!" I answered. "Cool I go there too! Maybe we could be buddies? I mean you don't have to if you don't want to. You wouldn't want to be embarrassed." He said sadly. "Of course we'll be buddies!"

Later..
"Bye Bella see you at school tomorrow!" Matthew says. "Bye Matthew!" I said. "You may call me Matt." He said. I nodded and my mom was waiting for me on the sidewalk. I walked home with my mom. It was currently 9:00 so why not go to sleep?

When I went to sleep, I thought about Matthew.

dream~

"Matthew please don't!" I said. I was crying right now.

"Why not Bella? Everybody hates me and everybody wants me to die including myself."

"Matthew I care about you! I cared about you when I first saw you! Matthew you have so much to live!"

"Bella, just understand that everybody hates me. My family hates me. So why not?"

"Matthew I like you! Not in a friend way but in a loving way! Matthew please don't!" I had tears streaming down my face.

"Your just saying that Bella! Your just trying to be nice!" He yelled.

"Matthew.." I said.

"This is MY LIFE Arabella! I make the decisions in life. You don't tell me what to do. So just quit it!" He snapped at me.

And when he said that, he turned around and quickly jumped off the cliff. I ran towards the cliff and see his body floating above the water.

"No! No! No!" I yelled. And that was the last time I ever saw him.

I woke up in my bed with sweat on myself. Thank god it was all a dream. I wonder if my dreams would come alive. Hopefully not because I truly care about Matthew a lot and I will not give up on him.

He needs to understand that he's not worthless becaus everybody is worth something. I looked at the time and it was currently 2 at night. I went to sleep praying that I won't have the same dream and that my dream won't come to reality.