The Deadly Star

Chapter 7: Fuck You Revenge.

I looked at Ryan’s face and then at the open door where a shocked, pale Rosalie now stood.

"You...you...what?" She whispered more in my direction than Ryan's even though HE was the one who killed them.

"I...It wasn't me!!" I replied trying to walk to her but she kept stepping back, away from me.

"Keep away from me you monster!!!" She yelled and that’s when I noticed the tears streaming down her face.

"Oh shit. Guys I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to. Fuck. You didn't know did you?" Ryan said in a panic.

"And to think I nearly fell for you!!!" Rosalie screamed and then threw her cold, white hand to her lips and ran away crying.

"Wait, ROSALIE! I'M SORRY!!! I DIDN'T KNOW!!" I shouted after her but she didn't even turn her head back in my direction. 

Fuck.

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

"Man I'm sorry. I didn't know. I thought you knew who it was and you had a reason...Shit. Sorry…Fuck. Sorry." Ryan said still in his panic mode.

"Just...just leave." I said more to the ground than to him but he left. Leaving me to curl up on my bed and surround myself in darkness once again.

'She was running, blonde curls bouncing behind her like waves at a surf beach. Her face turned around looking at me. I was running too. Towards her. Her eyes showed panic and then she tripped. Landing onto the soft sand we were running on. I ran over to her and pinned her to the ground, sitting on her lower stomach and pinning her arms with one of mine. With my other hand I drew out my dagger and placed it on the sand beside us. She whimpered for a few moments then looked deeply into my eyes, burning holes into them and I pushed against her body as a warning. She tried struggling out of my grasp which only caused me to press harder. I slowly brought my lips to hers which stopped her struggling. Our lips started moving in unison and she brought her hands up to my face, I was cupping her face and she started doing the same. I dropped one of my hands back to the dagger and let a few tears fall onto her face. She gave a confused look and then her eyes widened as the dagger sliced through her warm skin. Her hands stayed at my face as I drew the dagger out. She was dead this time. I kissed her forehead and then got up walking away..."

I woke up shaking and sweaty. I ran into Rosalie’s room to check on her and nearly passed out in relief. She was there lying on the bed curled into a ball. Then I remembered all that had previously happened and froze. I had no idea what to do, what to say to her now. More guilt overwhelmed me. Just then she rolled over and we locked gazes, her eyes were puffy and red, she had obviously been crying all night. Fuck this, revenge is shit. Revenge isn't meant to kill you inside. I pulled my gaze away from hers and she groaned and rolled over.

"Go away. There’s no fucking way I'm gonna forgive you for this you asshole. Everyone I have ever loved and cared for is dead you fucked up creature!" She yelled and then started sobbing.

"Rosalie, I'm so sorry, I understand you can't forgive me, I wouldn't forgive me either. I didn't mean for it to happen though Rosalie. I accidently gave Ryan the wrong address." I said looking at the floor.

"I have no need to listen to your crap once again. Leave. At the very least you owe me that." She said still not facing me.

"I-I-I-I just want you to know that I really am sorry...' I said and turned to leave.

I wasn't hungry, yet I knew I needed to eat, and so did Rosalie. So I ended up making a rather plain salad and left over pieces of meat from the other night. I split the meal in half and placed one of the halves on Rosalie's bedside table along with a glass of water. She was asleep now. It’s not like I was allowing her to do much other than that though.