what the fuck am i supposed to do? (depressed bakugou x kirishima)

kiri...

bakugo pov

"well..."

she went completely silent. i had assumed she was gonna reject me and kick me out of the house or something. i didn't even look at her when i said it, my focus was still on the pan cooking the eggs. it was silent for about 5 seconds until i felt a pair of arms around my waist. the old hag was hugging me.

i didn't expect it, i jumped when i first felt her wrap her arms around me. i felt myself start to tear up again.

"oh katsuki, don't cry! it's okay! you know that i'll be here for you, right?"

"yeah, whatever. and i'm not crying." i said, with tears clearly falling down my face.

"how long has it been?"

"a while."

"i noticed you haven't been eating much either, is it because..."

i sighed deeply.

"yeah."

"well you know you have to eat if you're gonna become the #1 hero, right? how are you gonna be king explosion murder if you're over her sulking about love?"

"it's not as simple as you think. he's clearly straight. if he wasn't i would have made a move by now."

"oh... i'm so sorry kat."

"whatever, it's not like i care anyway."

she hugged me once again, but this time i pushed her off.

"are you ever gonna tell him?"

"probably not. i don't wanna ruin our friendship. plus i don't know if he's homophobic or not."

"well if you ever need to talk, i'll be here and so will your father." she said yawning.

"now i'm going back to sleep, don't burn down the kitchen, alright brat?"

"whatever."

i finished making breakfast and put it all on plate. i sat down at the dinner table when i felt my phone buzzing in my pocket. it was a text from the groupchat.

the bakusquad 😎

pinky: hey bakubro, you alright? you haven't texted us all weekend!

pikachu: yeah man we're getting all bummed out.

me: yes you fucking losers i'm fine. i've been busy this weekend.
Read 6:03 am
flextape: with what? you normally don't do anything on weekends.

me: does it fucking matter? why are you texting me anyway?
Read 6:04 am
red riot: we wanted to know if you wanted to come to the mall with us!

'jesus christ. even when he's texting he's a ray of sunshine.'

me: fine
Read 6:06 am
pinky: HUH

flextape: did he just-

me: what?
Read 6:06 am
pinky: did the katsuki bakugou just say yes on the first try?

me: what? it's not like i have anything better to do.
Read 6:07 am
flextape: i thought you were bu- nevermind.

pikachu: jUST GO WITH IT SERO.

red riot: yay!! i can give you a ride if you want. i'll pick you at around 2. sound good?

me: whatever just leave me alone i'm eating.
Read 6:08 am

i set my phone down, finished eating, and rinsed off my plate before going back upstairs.

if kirishima is gonna be here at 2, then i can try to sleep from now until about 12:30 - 1. that'll be enough sleep, right?

i fell onto my bed. and instantly fell asleep. i felt... kinda good that i talked to someone about how i felt. and the fact that i was going to get to see him later made me feel even better.

~time skip~

i heard my ringtone going off and instantly shot out of my bed.

'shit. did i oversleep?'

i was relieved to see that it was just a call from raccoon eyes and it was only 12:15.

i answered the call.

"what do you want."

"nothing. just making sure you aren't dead. kiri said he'll pick you up at 2, right?"

"yeah, why?"

"just making sure."

"whatever. bye."

"byeeee."

kiri.

i don't know why her calling him kiri made me so mad. actually i wasn't mad, i was jealous. something i don't usually feel.

'do they have some kid of relationship going on that i don't know about?'

i still had a bit of time before i had to get up, so i sat back down on my bed and scrolled through instagram. i saw a certain account that i really didn't want to see.

there were SEVERAL fangirl accounts set up for kirishima after the sports festival. the ladies were all over him, which made me even more jealo- mad. but this one, this one was different. it was all dedicated to how they were one day gonna marry him and 'have his children', whatever that means.

'ughhh i wish he would talk about me like that.'

i needed to stop. i put my phone down and headed towards the bathroom to shower.

that's two chapters done and i'm gonna go to sleep now because it's 6:30 am and i still haven't gone to sleep.

see ya later aligators