Most Valuable P..... (Edited)

Chapter 16

Bea

Even at practice they did not dare ask me about anything and kept silent. I was a ticking bomb and they know better.

Tinapos ko ang last game namin against FEU and now finals bound na kami. I was happy because we had a chance na iuwi sa katipunan ang korona. Sa last year ko baka mabalik nanamin ang title. I thank God for it.

The whole team knew something was up. I ignored and blocked him. Natapos ang game ng hindi siya nakarating. I checked my phone to see if he called or texted back pero wala din. Nainis ako ng kaonti. He knew how important these games to me were at practice kahit fans hindi na pinapasok even schoolmates. Strictly coaching staff nalang talaga. We were banned from using social media which was a good thing for me diba?

Practice, class and sa bahay lang ako.

The image of them played inside my head like a song on repeat. Ayaw mawala.

First game ng finals, we lost. Blamed myself kasi alam kong I had a couple of errors naman talaga na wala sa training naming. Ayon, award ako kay coach O after the game. Alam niyang I wasn't focused enough.

Saw him there with his family. Walang isa sakanila ang lumapit sakin. Tita mozzy and tito Bong just smiled. Kahit si manong and ate aly. Pinipigilan nila sarili nilang lumapit sakin.

On the way home my dad gave me pointers on the errors I should avoid for the next game. It was comforting too. I just hugged my kuya the whole ride home.

Kakatapos lang ng training and was walking towards my car when someone grabbed my arm.

I was not expecting this.

"Bea" mahina niyang sabi.

"Wag mo kong hawakan" mariin kong sabi kaya binitawan niya ko. I looked at her bago ako naglakad paalis.

"I kissed him first. It was my fault" she reasoned.

As if naman may magbabago? I knew that already. So? Magiging okay na ba dapat yon dahil ikaw pala ang unang humalik? Tangina ano ako? Uto uto?

I kept ignoring her until I reach my car.

"Listen to me!" she shouted.

Binuksan ko ang pinto ng sasakyan ang threw my bag inside.

"Im sorry" maingat niyang sabi.

She grabbed my arm again. "please talk to him"

"wag mo kong diktahan" mariin kong sabi.

"It was my fault!" she pushed.

"I don't fucking care. Leave me the fuck alone." Seryoso kong sabi sabay marahas na hinila ang braso ko.

Papasok na ako ng sasakyan when she still had something to say.

"Hindi niya tatanggapin ang offer for the FIBA World Cup" that made me stop.

"What?" kunoot noo kong baling sakanya.

"He will2. He's in a pretty rough shape right now. Kaya kami magkasama the past few days because... my dad died and he was just trying to be there for me. They all were. Ikaw daw ang nagmomotivate sakanya at nagtuturo sakanya when it comes to studying kaya ngayon wala na siyang naiintindihan because you weren't there. Hindi ko alam kung... nagiinarte lang ba yon or totoo" 

she paused.

"Tito recently got..." a little hesitant but she continued "h-he got diagnosed din... with cancer"

Napaawang ang bibig ko. What the fuck?

"I'm sorry if I thought na I can somehow fill in your place or ruined you both. I-  I'm sorry. But please, he needs you right now."

That was the last thing she said before walking away. Napahawak ako sa dibdib. I honestly don't know what to feel. One thing is for sure, I needed to see him but I don't know how.

Ano sasabihin ko? Will I just accept everything? Everything has been chaotic and we both are dealing with different things. 

Gusto ko nalang siya yakapin ng mahigpit and tell him it's okay. Na gagaling din si tito. How I wish things were easier... or maybe it is? kaso hindi eh. Hindi na ganon kadali na makita lang siya tapos okay na. I was hurt, he's also hurt. 

Ngayon hindi ko alam kung tama ba na puntahan ko lang siya just because of what I heard. But he's Thirdy. He might be a big guy but he's always been so soft on the inside. But right now, I need to clear my head first.