I picked up the phone and held gently against my ear.
"Y/n?" was the first word which escaped his lips. His smooth low pitched voice was all I desired to hear.
As soon as I heard his voice, I couldn't contain myself anymore. I started getting weak as tears flowed down my eyes, I sobbed softly.
Finally gathering all my courage, I hummed in response.
"Tell me, what happened?" His calm tone was laced with solicitude and consideration. I clutched my phone tighter and shut my eyes as more tears began to slid down.
"Pabo, just tell me already." I kept quiet, his soft words were heeling my pain.
Taking a long deep breathe, I uttered, "Sometimes I want to vanish from this face of world. Go far away from all the problems I have." By now, many distressing and unbearable painful memories has started playing in the back of my head. I gazed at the old scars on my wrist.
"If you feel comfortable, you can share it with me." Jimin softly spoke, some genuine concern could be sensed in it.
"It's my parents." I started to let myself flow some of the pain which I had suppressed within from an overly long time.
I continued, "My parents fight a lot. They are always screaming at each other."
"But y/n, you need to understand that some couples work that way. Their power is in fighting and bickering all da–"
"Yeah, but it's abnormal. They just don't stop, they can't stand each other. And I've seen them like this since I was kid. Sometimes, I just feel like it's all my fault."
"But they're still with each other. Isn't it something?"
"It would've been better if they just divorced each other, there would've been peace at least." I hitched a breath. "But I begged to not get separated."
An awkward thick silence fell over the two of us. Deciding to break it again, I spoke, " And I can't wait to leave this place and just go somewhere far away when I get into university." I exasperated.
"When you get into university, you'll have more time to yourself, you'll be independent and it's only 2 years from now. So please be strong till then." I could feel the smile he was wearing, through his voice.
"You know, my parents are one of the cause I suffer this fucking diso—" I clasped my hand on my mouth, instantly regretting what ever I said and was going to say furthermore.
Fuck.
"What? What did you say? Suffer wha–"
"I feel like I'm the cause of their suffering. I'm at fault. Whatever I do, I'm always not enough." Interrupting Jimin, I altered my words and silently hoped he won't inquire futhermore.
"Tell me Jiminie, what is my fault if I'm not a topper unlike you and Jenica?" Even if I wanted to spill everything to him, there was always some part which got stuck inside me.
"Okay so that's the problem?" He giggled. Well, he shouldn't have taken it so lightly. There were so many complications. I just couldn't share them with him or anyone.
"No... My parents have a a problem. Um, to be more specific my dad has a problem since he himself was a school topper, huh." I wiped another unwanted tear as it slipped from my right eye.
"Y/n, you already know my answer. I get you have not been given subjects of your choice and that's the reason you aren't able to perform exceptionally well, but now that you have to study these only, at least you can work hard, right?"
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Fanfiction"Why can't be I perfect as expected? It's so hard to just you know, do it." I tried really hard not to let my tears fall. "Who said you have to be perfect, y/n?" "My parents." "Well you don't have to be, to them. Because you're perfect in mine alr...
