confused

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The night wasn't good for iwazumi. he moved around a lot,closed his eyes just to open them again,covered himself in his blanket just to throw it away shortly after. so it wasn't really suprising that he hard dark circles under his eyes and yawned a lot. slowly he approached his closet,dressing himaelf with a hoddie and Jeans. it was a november morning,cold and raining,and normally the black haired boy wouldn't go out if not needed. but now,he didn't even hesitate to dress and leave his apartment. he had been living alone for years now,back in his birth town and now here in tokyo,it wasn't new for him to be alone. he put on his shoes and his jacket and left his apartment at 10 in the morning. the hospital wasn't far away,it was a short way of 10 minutes and iwa grabbed a coffee on his way. he greeted the women at the entrance,it was a different one than yesterday,and then walked straight to the room again. he felt his pulse going up as he knocked on the door of room 204. "come in" a soft voice responded and iwazumi could feel his heart stopping for a moment. he opened the door slowly and slipped through. the smell of hospital surrounded him again and his eyes lay automatically on the boy in the bed. his head was facing the window and iwa walked over slowly. "good morning shittykawa" the shorter one said softly and Oikawa flinched a bit before turning around. "Iwa-chan" his voice sounded soft but cracked and his eyes locked with his immediately. iwazumi pulled the chair to the bed and sat down. "yeah,it's me" the tall boy couldn't believe his eyes,he was sure it was one of those fever dreams. he hasn't seen his best friend in such a long time,why would he be here all of the sudden? "are you really here or am I hallucinating?" iwazumi grinned. "no I'm really here" Oikawa's face did not look any better but his eyes started to glow the more they talked. for around 30 minutes they talked about unimportant stuff before the tall one had enough courage to speak up. "why are you here iwa-chan?" the quiet one looked up and raised an eyebrow. "your doctor called me" oikawa didn't know what answer he expected but this one hurted his feelings. so his friend was only here because he had to. "you don't have to stay if you don't want to" the boy said and turned around again. "don't be stupid oikawa" iwazumi had leaned back into the chair and watched his friend being butthurt. he didn't change a bit. iwazumi got up and went to the bathroom. his eyes scan every inch but he couldn't find one hygienic product. he walked back to the room. "you don't have anything here?" he asked and Oikawa shook his head slowly. "so what happened?" iwazumi asked after a while and watched Oikawa sitting up,his face distorted in pain. "I fell" he said shortly and iwa sights. no one said anything about the accident, all he knew was that it happened in a game. not even the doctor knew what happened,oikawa always said he fell. the quiet boy scanned his friend,trying to figure out what it was that he was hiding but Oikawa kept a poker face. "how have you been?" the tall one asks and smiles. iwa shrug his shoulders. "okay" something was missing here,the energy Oikawa had was different and it was bugging iwazumi more than he admitted. " I quit volleyball a year ago,I'm only training kids now" Oikawa's face lit up. "you're coaching?" he asked excited and iwa sat down again nodding. "and you can live from that?" iwa nodded again. "that is cool but we should definitely play together when I'm healed. I became better,you'll see" his voice turned higher a few tones and he talked in the same way he used to talk at Seijou. "okay" the door opened and an elderly lady walked in. "oh I'm sorry,I didn't know you have guests today" she was about to leave but iwa stopped her. "it's okay,I was leaving anyways" he got up and the lady returned to Oikawa. "you're leaving?" his friends voice sounded like a child and iwa grinded as he turned around. "yes" "but you'll come back right?" Oikawa's eyes started into his friends soul as iwa nodded. why did he nod? iwazumi didn't feel comfortable with the energy Oikawa was giving off and now that he woke up he could handle all his stuff on his own. slowly leaving iwazumi decided to make a stop at the mall. he walked outside the hospital and closed his jacket,it had begun to snow. he took the long way to the mall,walking approximately 20 minutes before he stopped. he bought a toothbrush and toothpaste,a brush,some deodorant and perfume and some hair gel. he didn't know why he did it,he just did. he went a few shops further and started to shop clothes for his friend. nothing special,just some hoddies and sweatpants,socks and boxers. with his arms full of bags,iwa walked home. it was already 2 and he hadn't gotten anything besides coffee. he put away everything he bought and started cooking,even though he wasn't hungry. since he arrived in tokyo,he had this weird feeling in his chest that he couldn't quit explain. with his food prepared he sat down on the couch and turned on the TV. he didn't really pay attention to the program nor did he eat his food properly. he layed down after a while and closed his eyes,listening to a documentary about meat while he tossed away into his sleep.