Butterfly

chapter 6

My head swarmed with thoughts. My stomach swam with feelings. It was a relief to admit these feelings. "I am in love with issac" i said aloud. It does however feel strange to be feeling this way after yesterday. I just couldn't contain it anymore. I'm going to tell him. When he gets home i am going to tell him. A huge smiled spread across my face and confidence flooded me. Not long after the door shut. Isaac walked in. "I need to talk to you" we both said at the same time. We looked at each other, "sorry, you go." Isaac said. " no it's fine you first. " i replied "well I broke up with Eleanor, it went rather well." Isaac responded. " Good, I actually saw her not long ago" I replied.

"I've been building up to tell you this, so I'll just come out with it. Ivy I love you," Isaac started. "I" I began, "no let me say this while i have the courage." Isaac said. I nodded silently. "I love you, I always have. I know the exact day I knew. We were 9, you fell of your skatebored and grazed your face, you put on a brave face, but I knew you were in pain. I asked if you wanted me to kiss it better, I learnt that from my mum When she did it to my cuts it made me feel better. you said yes, tears threatening to come out. the way you looked at me after, it Was the best face I'd ever seen you pull. That's when I knew. Growing up, I  wanted to protect you and be there for you always. I always got jealous. I always got angry when I couldn't see you. You are the best thing that has happened to me since custard creams. It doesn't matter if you don't feel the same, I just need you to know that no matter what happens I will always have your back." Isaac finished. He let out a breath of relief. I looked at him my eyes full of admiration. "I'm so happy to hear you say that. I love you more than I can explain. Remember the day after I grazed my face, we were at school and Joe laughed at me. The whole class joined in, you threw your sandwich at his head and told the whole class to shut up. When you got asked why you did it, you told the teacher, 'Joe was a smelly poo bag, and He really upset my best friend. She still is so pretty with that graze.' That's when I knew, you have always been on my mind. Where ever I go, what ever i do, i'll see stuff and think Isaac would like that, or When I'm watching tv without you I always think, Isaac would find that funny. It seems weird talking about this now after yesterday but I can't hide it anymore you are one of the only two things holding me together." I replied. Isaac didn't respond but got up and gave me the sweetest kiss. So many emotions in one kiss, happiness, relief, excitement. Everything. He pulled away and looked at me. "What do we do now?" Isaac said. " get milkshakes? " i replied grinning. "Milkshakes." Isaac responded. He took my hand and we left. It was a beautiful day. Clear skies, warmth all around and birds
flying freely. I hoped it wasn't awkward and it wasn't. It was like usual except I got to hold his hand and kiss him whenever. I felt like a 12 year old girl, obsessing over a one direction boy. however Isaac was better than that.

We sat outside in the sun. Drinking our milkshakes it was peacful. I felt like for the moment my troubles had gone away. "So I took a quiz to find out which Harry Potter character  I am and I got Fred Weasly." Isaac said. " that is amazing, I took one and  I got George, but it's fine because they are the funniest people in it' i responded. "True, I still can't believe Fred is gone" Isaac replied. "Isaac, you need to let it go," I said jokingly. " it's too hard, what about Sirius then? " he responded. I gasped "that was a low blow". "Ivy, you need to let it go," Isaac said in a mocking tone. Everything was amazing from them on. When we told Jude. All he said. "Took you long enough!"

On Friday night we went out, it was fun, we just laughed and danced. It was 2 in the morning, we decided to go to a club with some people we met at the pub. It was fun. About an hour in one of them pulled out a bag. I'd only done weed, but I was intrigued so I had a line or two. It felt amazing, my whole body felt light and my mind was clear and free. For the first time in years. I hate to admit it but I enjoyed it more than I should have. Isaac and Jude didn't like it as much. The next weekend we went out again, I got roped in, but secretly I wanted to do it again.