Butterfly

chapter 16

The next two weeks passed quickly. I used my notebook a lot. Every time I had a random thought it feeling, I would write it down, it felt like it was clearing my head. Jude came and visited me often. This was very helpful. He almost kept me sane. It also helped because this whole time, because I realised I wasn't alone. I started writing short stories Ellis said I had a knack for it. I could tell you all about my time in hospital, but it's too long and I'd rather leave it behind. Today was my final day I was getting my last bits and bobs ready. "Hey Ivy, how are you?" Ellis was stood in my door way. "I'm feeling good. Thank you for everything." I replied. "it's what I'm here for, I'm just glad you're feeling better. I'll get out your hair" Ellis smiled. She gave my hand a good luck squeeze and left.

Jude arrived a few minutes later. "Hey you. Excited to leave." Jude said. "Yes, it's been a rollercoaster. But I'm relieved it's over." I responded. Jude took my bags. I signed out. I was finally free again. We got into Jude's car. He looked as if he was debating his next words. "Jude you don't need to walk on eggs shells, just say it" I said. He sighed. "I just thought, it would be nice for you to have closure, I have Isaacs ashes, what do you say we go to the beach, play his favourite songs. I think it will be good for us both to say good bye." Jude replied. Although I'm not 'crazy' anymore i still was still extremely sad. I looked a Jude with tears in my eyes. "That sounds exactly like what I need. Let's go" I responded. We spent most of the day on the beech, trying to find a perfect spot. We waited till it was dark. The moon was shining salutary.

Jude took my hand, we walked to the sea edge. It was beautiful. I played the playlist we made when were first left for California. "I just want to say something before we free him, into the ocean, hey Issac, it's Jude. I miss you buddy. I still think about all the silly things we got up to when we were young, that time we put mayo in Ivy's tea instead of milk, or when I swapped your PE shirt with Ivy's extremely smaller one. Thank you for being such a great friend these last 25 years. Your outlook was so inspiring and positive. I love you and I'll miss you" Jude said, his face plastered with sadness and contentment. I still had a hold of Jude's hand and squeezed it tightly. I looked at him, he nodded encouragingly. "Hi Isaac, it's your extremely sexy wife Ivy" I started, both me and Jude chuckled, "I can't express how much I will miss you, it literally made me crazy. You were the greatest thing to happen to me, you always had my back, you supported every decision I made, even ones you disagreed with, for example me mixing my ketchup and mayonnaise. I'm still adjusting to life without you, it will be hard, but I know I'll be ok, because of everything you taught me when you were here. I also know both Me and Jude will be fine, because we met you. This very cute, kind, wise, optimistic young boy. I am going to miss you so much, I will always have a place for you in my heart, 'we'll meet again someday, on the avenue' I love you long time." I finished beginning to well up. My heart felt so full but so empty all at once.

We stayed the rest of the night, telling stories about Isaac and all the silly things we got up too when we were young. We laughed and we cried. Jude was the one person I knew who was feeling the same as me. He was also the only person I wanted to be around.

(Here is a song that fits the 16th chapter) Tomorrow is a long time-Bob Dylan