delivery boy|nomin

twelve

once he ran out of the apartment he left renjun there, scared for his life

"fi-hey! wait!"

was all renjun managed to say before he chased jaemin out of the apartments, and he saw jaemin in the car already

he didn't question it and he quickly drove away, once they got to their area jaemin quickly got out, leaving renjun behind fending for his own confusion

once jaemin made it in he locked himself in the room and made sure to take the pain killers he had, no water just like that

"nana, what happened?"

he said while knocking on the door, and jaemin didn't have the courage, renjun just sighed as he knew it would take a few days for him to spill

time skip

it had only been like three days and jaemin was tired of it, so he finally decided to tell renjun

"injunnie?"

and he turned to the living room but no one was there and then he looked to the kitchen and he sat there doing stuff

"injun..."

and that was all renjun needed to hear for him to hug the boy, worry was taking over him and he was glad nana came out

"you didn't do anything, did you?"

"no, why?"

"let me check"

and jaemin reluctantly put his arms out turning his arms palm up, while renjun lifted up his sleeves and checked if he hadn't done anything

-flashback-

"dad, p-please i'm sorry, i-it won't happen a-again"

but the man didn't care and he kept hitting the boy, until blood came out, and then after 5 minutes it was over

"maybe i-i should d-do it"

and he grabbed the blade from the desk and he placed against the skin on his wrist, his clean and smooth wrists wounded and bumpy by the scars of pain

he started off slow, the pain barely there, he winced but it didn't affect him much

"f-fuck..."

and he did it again, to the other, the blood all over and the blade covered, he looked at them and he just felt pathetic, he wanted to end himself right there and then

that is until he couldn't keep his eyes open, his blood slowly pouring out from the hits and from the cuts, he was slowly losing his consciousness and he had hoped he was dead but that wasn't the case

he woke up in the hospital, yes, but later taken out and beaten again, it was the same stuff over and over again but no hospital, and then he went to school

his friend renjun didn't know what happens at home, he's too afraid to ask and he didn't want to invade his privacy

until a few days later jaemin never came, and renjun grew worried so he went to the house and he went in

and what he heard was terrifying the yelling, then gunshots, and then the quiet sobbing of jaemin

but jaemin wanted to die so he held the knife that he used to defend himself toward his stomach

"jaemin, no!"

and he ran to jaemin trying to take it away, but jaemin ended up stabbing renjun accidentally

"jaemin-ah..."

renjun looked at jaemin and he fell back but he survived it

but jaemin fell into a deep depression state, he cut himself all the time and he couldn't stop, claiming it was his happy place, saying it helped him with the pain

he stopped after a while but then he was jumped and raped by four different people and it triggered everything, he couldn't even face renjun because of the trauma he had

he knew it was hard to make friends but it was a long time ago, so he slowly started coming out of the dark place and joined the others in the light

but although he seemed fine, the little things triggered him, it was like a memory that never faded, it was a scar forever embedded in his head

renjun wanted jaemin to be happy but he was scared for him, and every time he looked at the scar, he cried and remembered that jaemin wanted to kill himself and he stopped it

the memory of that day stuck in his head, the dead body of jaemin's father and the wrists he had witnessed was something he hated

he just wished he had saved jaemin sooner

-flashback end-