delivery boy|nomin

epilogue

it had been what maybe at least a year, jaemin held a cake as he smiled brightly, sitting on the green grass

"happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear renjun, happy birthday to you..."

and he cheered all by himself as he blew out the candle and smiled at the headstone reading it and then looking down at the bracelet he fiddled with

the headstone read;
huang renjun
march 23, 2000 -
september 8, 2020

caring friend, brother, son, and partner

"you would have turned 21, today and you could have had your first taste of beer, it's quite funny though, you probably wouldn't wanted to since you never did drank not even at parties."

"yo-han moved in with me, mark and haechan got engaged, your room is left untouched, lucas found the one, chenle and jisung are also engaged, kun found his one and only, i found my mom, injun..."

"if only you could meet her, you would love her, but she has her own family..."

"i miss you, y'know, the apartment hasn't been the same and sometimes i can still hear your nagging heh, i hope you know i love you..."

"i have to go now...i'll visit you some other time, see you later injun."

time skip

"sit here and we'll bring him in."

"alright."

i sighed as i looked around, looking at the small window and then i heard the door open and the officer sat him down, removing the cuffs and he grabbed the phone as i picked the one up on my side

"how have you been?"

"great."

sarcasm. and i just looked at him sadness in my eyes.

"why did you do it?"

silence. and he stared at me with no emotion.

"because...they saw it"

fear. i gulped down the lump in my throat.

"w-what was it?"

"they all saw the video..."

he smiled. and then he looked at me.

"of how i raped you, and after that i killed them..."

"n-no, i loved you..."

"and i didn't, it was all a game for me."

"i hate you! you sick monster! you ruined me!"

tears. they came out like a waterfall and i hit the glass, as he looked at me with a smile. satisfied.

they pulled me away and i looked at him as he got up and walked away. and once i got back home, i threw myself on the floor as yo-han came out, helping me up and setting me on the couch

warmth. how the tea felt when it hit my tongue and down my throat. how it felt when he rubbed my sides as he comforted me.

"it's okay...don't worry baby, i'm here."

safe. is how i felt in the arms of my lover and how he whispered small praises to me. and how he made me feel safe as he was there for me.

i felt so loved and i gave yo-han kisses as i was so happy and we just kissed for a long time as he not once touched me inappropriately, but kept his hands on my back

but even that he was always so kind and gentle and after that he stopped and caressed my cheek looking at me fondly, and i smiled at him and he smiled too, we then started to talk and it was much fun

we never ran out of conversations and soon we had both fallen asleep on the couch, and i was happy

i forgot about jeno and it was for the best

"he had found himself crying for someone who didn't deserve his tears and he let those memories go because if he held on longer he would try his best to find the better part of it."

"but there is no better part just an unforgivable past."

the end.