Breeze Of Destiny

Six

Chapter 6

Alone

"Enjoy your stay, Ma'am!" Sabi ko sa mga babaeng foreigner na nag check in sa La Isla Talikud.

Kahapon ang flight ni Clem pabalik ng Manila. She texted me as soon as she landed. I'm left here. Alone. Putangina.

Matatapos na ang shift ko ng may dumating ulit.

"Good day, Sir—" I stopped when I faced him to know who it was. It's Alex. He'a wearing a white long-sleeved polo, tacked in with his black slacks, his hair is a bit brushed back just to make it look clean since he's a doctor, and he's with a lab gown hanged in his wrist.

He look so manly and more like a doctor talaga. It's the first time I saw him this casual.

"What do you need?" Nag iba ang tono ng pananalita ko. Galing sa medyo jolly, ngayon wala ng ka buhay buhay.

"Why the sudden change of tone?" Tumaas ang kilay niya.

"Why not go straight ahead to your room?" Masungit na tugon ko. Syempre dapat attitude tayo sis!

"Gusto mo bang magpa check up? Libre lang naman. Baka kasi high blood ka?" Mayabang niyang sabi. Ugh! Nakakapikon promise!

"Can't you just leave?" And so he left smirking. I'm trying my best to ignore and get rid of this piece of sht because I already know his attitude! Since our first meeting in the bar. He taked advantage of a drunk girl. First impression lasts!

Mabuti nalang dumating na ang susunod na magababantay at dumiretso na akong umalis nang 'di nililingon si Mr. Antipatiko.

I stopped by the sea shore. Pinagmasdan ko lang ang dagat at pinakinggan ang tunog ng alon. Dahil wala masyadong naliligo, it always seemed like ASMR.

If Clem's here, she would ask me if we could go swim. I'd say yes. Pero ano ba naman, ang boring mag isa! While my brain cells are battling whether I'm going to take a dip or not, I decided that I should. Practice na kung paano maging independent.

I went home and found a one piece, nagsuot nalang ako ng shorts para 'di masyadong mukhang turista. Nagpaalam ako kay Tita Flor at bumalik agad sa kung saan ako kanina.

Pansin kong malapit na lumubog ang araw pero kahit ganoon, naglagay parin ako ng sun block. Tinanggal ko ang aking tsinelas at lumusob sa dagat. Sis ang lamig!!

Nasa mababaw muna ako, tumingala ako para mabasa ang buhok ko. I tried floating. It's funny that I'm enjoying!

I decided to go to the deeper part of the ocean. I know how to swim anyway. Lumangoy ako papunta sa malalim na parte hanggang sa hindi ko na maabot ang mga buhangin. I stopped when I realized that I shouldn't go farther.

I tried to swim just so I can make the most out of my  decision to take a dip. I realized it isn't that deep yet but just enough. I swam back up to get some air. Nang makakuha ng hangin, I tried floating.

I then started to think about things. Ikaw ba naman mag isa sa dagat at walang kausap, 'di ka ba makakapag isip isip?

I'm glad that I really got to experience what I came here for. This is exactly what I wanted! Freedom! I can do whatever I want to do, I became more independent, I don't have to think about big problems such as marrying a man I barely know.

Here, I'm a free woman! As if, I got out of my own cell after almost 21 years of my existence. I never felt this free until now!

Of course, I can't forget about them and can't help to wonder how are they doing. How's mom and dad? How's Manang Mirasol? How are my friends doing? Do they still party? Hahaha! I don't really know. I do miss them.

I'm here for one thing and that's to rest, inhale the good things and exhale the bad things.

Although, a thought sadden me that one day, I'll still face all those problems I left in Manila. I can't stay here forever, even if I want to. Nasa Manila ang buhay ko at darating talaga ang araw na kailangan 'kong balikan ang mga 'yon. I left a lot, my work, my family, my friends. Kamusta na kaya ang team ko 'don ng walang nag mamanage sakanila? I wonder who manages them? Probably mom. Kawawa naman sila kung ganon.

I can't help but to reminisce because that's the only thing I can do! I can't talk to anybody. Left without nothing to do, I just enjoyed the ocean breeze.

I stopped reminiscing when I felt something on my right foot. Pinupulikat ata ang kanang paa ko. Kasabay ng isan malaking alon, nilamon ako ng tubig dagat.

Shit, I'm drowning.

"Help!! Tulong!!" Sigaw ko ng nakahinga ng kaunti. Hanggang sa nalunod nanaman ako. Sinubukan ko nanamang lumangoy paitaas upang makakuha ng hangin. Nagtagumpay naman ako sa aking ginawa.

I got the chance to catch a breath! I still can't swim properly! Pinupulikat parin ang paa ko! I'm panicking!

"Tulong!! Tulong!!" Winawagayway ko ang aking kamay sa ere upang makakuha ng atensyon although I know konti lang ang naliligo. I screamed to death hoping that people could hear me.

Nalunod nanaman ako nang isang malaking alon ang dumating. I tried to recover from drowning once more and gladly, I made it. I catched my breath once again.

"Clem!! Help!!" The only name I could shout even though she's not here. I don't know what to do anymore! My right leg won't function! Medyo malayo pa ako sa dalampasigan kaya napakahirap. "Tulong—" I wasn't able to finish my word when a larger wave came. Tuluyan akong nilamon nito and brought me deeper than the other waves before. I can't seem to recover from it anymore.

Even if I try my best to swim up, I just can't handle the pressure anymore. I can barely swim because of my leg cramps. Maybe no one ever heard me screaming for help, with that realization, I slowly lost hope.

I don't know why but I just found myself strengthless and accepting the fact that I'm really about to die from drowning. Maybe that's the reason why of all places, dito ko naisip mapadpad. Everything happens for a reason remember?

Too bad I wasn't able to bid my good bye to those important to me.

I slowly closed my eyes like how I'm slowly accepting what is destined for me.

Last thing I knew, I already lost my consciousness.

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sorry I was gone for a looong time
:( everyone stay safe ♡