I don't know you

16/21 (edited)

 peters p.o.v

when you kill a person its not like the feeling of a person dying, from a disease or a car incident its diffent VERY diffrent you feel so guilty about it that it's rotting your core, you won't recover from it, not sooner or later, when killing a person might drive you to the brink of insanity you get paranoid about.everything. Changes in your personality go up and down you can never control it it's like the steering wheel is not there anymore "currently in repair" not under your control which might not come back. You don't know who is controlling you you get scared of how it might affect you and everyone around you, you get afraid of the near future and everything you do you need to be extremely cautious and delicate about it because you never know if you'll screw-up. in 

random days you get this extreme wave of guilt to send to you you become isolated from the outside world anger pain guilt and horror become a permanent feeling in your daily life panic attacks are a natural occurrence and the pain it never goes away cause well it's a human life  a and and taking it away  from the a f*cking living soul it gets hard at first to get that though in your head so it changes the circuits of the your mind into a diffrent one you can never move on from it, and even if you do the pain will always be there pulling an "I'm alright face" starts to 

crumble over time the emotions get way to overwhelming to deal with you get scared to talk to anybody because you might be afraid of ruining a good relationship with them or worrying them which cause you to be more tired and more crumbled in the inside and everyday you rot slowly and slower because you gotta fix the face which might be more exhausting so they can be happy 

decisions you make become your worse fear and you start to forget what hope is you dont know her...but killing a person who was always there for you? who you saw as a father? and them right in front of you cause you figured that you time travel and you've been punching them in the fac ever scince?  now that's a whole different story....

"why?" i sucked in a shuddery breath please please please stop talking every sound he makes is so....tonyish 

"i need to make....something" something that you made 

'he did it for you'

'please stop reminding me that i killed someone else

'it wasn't your-'

'stop okay? if you could look me in the eye happy and tell me that he wouldnt  be alive right now if i never met him then do'

'...'

'i thought so'

'...he's a better man because of you you know'

'he was always a good man happy, right now hes a dead man because of me'

"what?"

"a time machine...i need..i need to build a time machine im not from this time..." but what he did next almost broke me...he laughed

"that's a good one kid, honestly better then the kidnapping one"

"tony, downstairs in your lab under all the folders next to the left seat in the cabinet there is a lock password 'you know me' once you open it you find a suit the one that has been in Siberia when that b*tch shoved the shield in your suit, but anyone could have known that right? vulture name drain toomes, he's going to steal you plane in.." i looked at the clock behind me 

"...4 hours containing all types of chituri tech that you blamed yourself for causing''

'you saved os many people that day mr.stark it not your fault!'

'kid you think i know or care about  the saved ones?' it was so silent

'i know the dead...every name every grade every....age everything i do...'

i gulped at the memory "do i half to wait 4 hours or can i just go down to the lab now?" 

tonys p.o.v

..did not see that coming...and did not see myself actually giving that kid of information to a person trying to kill me *low breath of air* 'back to the future' excuse actually turning into something....real coming okay...so apparently since Peter of this Time definitely doesn't hate me as much as peter in the future we have to stop that...

"so...back to the future huh? what time are you from?'' he froze for a second before shrugging

''2023" i widened my eyes HE'S WAS 21 TRAPPED IN THAT BODY ALL THIS TIME?!?!

peters p.o.v

"im not 21, im not going to explain, im from 2023 but something happened"

"oh...fora second i almost saw you as a mature adult" well you got mature right *scoff* i looked down at the chains still shocked that mr.stark actually did this

"...so you actually put the chains?" i gulped still haven't looked at him once i heard a breath hitch from behind me

"yeah you get paranoid when a person throws you into 6 buildings and breaks your best friends nose and *hestitaion* im not taking them off, ill take you to the lab but parker...i meant what i said by enemy" at that i froze i just..i just threw mr.stark out of in through i hurt mr.stark...in..i thew up