I'll Always Be By Your Side. (Ryden)

Chapter 8

*** Quick Author's Note: Sorry for not updating quickly (if I could update every day I definitely would) I've been busy the past week with finals and then the last couple days I've been unwinding from the hectic of it all. Also, I had half of this typed out and the app crashed. Anyway enjoy<3 ***

Ryan's POV:

I looked down to see Brendon fell asleep in my lap. I still ran my fingers through his hair. Okay, I can't sleep like this. I tried moving without moving him, but it isn't possible. I sighed and looked at his peaceful face. You know what, fuck it. "Your fault for falling asleep on me," I muttered to him. I pushed up his body and squeezed next to him on the couch. This caused Brendon to wake up, and his face was full of confusion. I quickly shut my eyes and then felt him shift next to me. It didn't take long for him to fall back asleep. His head is set on my chest and is completely curled into me. I felt surprisingly relaxed by it. I wrapped my arms around him and finally could let myself sleep.
When I awoke Brendon was still sound asleep. I listened to the noises in the room which was just the breathing of Brendon next to me. He is now sleeping on his side. I decided to do the same so I can continue to hold him. My arms securely wrap around his warm body, right at the waist. I let no space between us. Being this close to him relaxes me. I can smell his cologne which gives me this high because it's him. All this time I've hidden every feeling, but now, I don't know why, I'm accepting it. I tightened my arm. I need him. I placed a few kisses on his bare neck. I love you. My nose softly slid across as I breathed out. Every second longer I spend with him the more my love intensifies and the harder it is to disguise it as friendship. I kissed his neck again, but this time I'm leaving a mark. I slowly sucked at the skin and bit at it carefully. I let go and saw a small red mark which would slowly change into a purple. Brendon stirred and turned towards me. He almost fell off, but I caught him and scooted him closer. Our noses now touching and his breath on my face. I can see every detail, his eyelashes and slightly ajar lips. The slight stumble that's coming in, and how his whole body moves in one fluid motion. My smile faded as I heard footsteps at the front door. Why does my dad ruin every good moment in my life? I shook Brendon awake quickly and grabbed his hand running up to my room. I'm carrying dead weight behind me. I slammed my door shut and locked it as I heard the front door open.
"Ryan, what-" I didn't want to hear him talk. I just wanted this. I grabbed his face and placed my lips on his. I pulled back; Brendon looked shocked. So am I because I just did that. For a full minute I swear we just stared at the other. He grabbed my face then and kissed again. The kisses turned from long and sweet to quick and urgent. I could feel the longing in it all. I back Brendon up on to my bed and straddled him from there. We slipped our tongues into each other's mouths and begin a pattern. I pulled on his bottom lip with my teeth and he let out a soft moan. At this point we both were hard. I could feel Brendon bucking up his hips and I met him. I pushed down and we let the friction do the work. His hands roamed onto my ass and forced me to push even harder against him. Brendon then decided to be on top. He flipped us over and put his forehead against mine. He started placing soft kisses next to my lips and down my jaw leading to my neck. My eyes are closed and are memorizing the fluttery feel of it all. One hand slides up my shirt rubbing against my hip bone and rests on my waist. The other hand is in my hair slightly tugging at it.
This, this is something I'd never forget.

~~Time lapse to the end of the week~~

"I definitely know I failed." I sighed as I plopped next to Brendon on the worn out, dingy couch.
"I wouldn't worry about it," Spencer looked up and smiled at me, "Your grades are fine. It's not like you're automatically going to fail." I eyed him and sighed knowing he's right. Brendon looked over at me and slung he's arm across my shoulders.
"Don't freak about it. I'm pretty sure I failed. Hell, I know I did!" He was laughing. Letting it ring through the air without a care in the world. I looked down towards the floor. No I'm not smiling about this. I'm not laughing about it either. I don't want school to call and inform my dad of my now dropping grades. Then take the chance of him beating my ass. Brendon has pulled me over closer next to him. Our bodies are now pressed into each other as if we're some mutant. Spencer and Brendon are laughing about something too bad I didn't catch it. I looked up and then Spence tossed a beer at me.
"Drink up, kid." I swore I wouldn't but honestly now fuck it.
Drink. Laugh. Get more. Repeat.
The whole night was filled with that. Brent never showed up so we took it as a day/night for us to catch up and have fun. I don't even remember everything that happened; all I know now is that I'm in Spencer's room with Brendon spread on top of me. Is he naked? No, he's wearing boxers. My head is pounding and I feel just awful. I moved a bit, and Brendon decides now to be a light sleeper.
"Holy fuck my head hurts." I will never grow tired of his morning voice.
"My everything hurts. I have a grown man sprawled across my body." He looked over and then crawled under the comforter to join me. I notice now, I'm only wearing my underwear too. Brendon set his head on my bare chest and curled into me. I couldn't help but pulling up his face so I could kiss him. We haven't kissed since that evening, and I need to feel that warmth. He mirrored his lips with mine but grew tense and pulled away.
"Ryan, I can't. I'm too worried that my parents will find out. Also, what if your dad finds out?" Brendon wouldn't meet my eyes. He stared at the comforter like it was a better interest to him.
"They won't, we're currently at Spence's remember?"
"Yes, but his parents could walk in or even worse walk in with my parents because they are surprise picking me up! I'll make you a deal, whenever no one is home we can let things slip a little further." Brendon's face increasingly got closer. His hot breath on my neck as he kissed and placed a hickey right above my collar bone.
"I thought we weren't doing this?" Keep your voice leveled Ryan.
"Did I mention my parents are out of town for the day? Last minute Christmas shopping." Brendon swung his leg over my hip and pressed his lips to mine. I can feel my heart rate increasing with each kiss. Our hips moving back and forth. The lust and want in Brendon's eyes is mesmerizing. My hands roam down his back slightly pressing my nails into his skin. I won a moan that crept from the back of his throat.
Brendon Boyd Urie, you are the greatest thing in my life.