Envious Love[Demi Lovato]

Chapter 3

Your anxiety was really bad, having to think about so many things all at once especially with home. Your usual day was leaving class and hiding in the bathroom to calm down after a panic attack or during one, however you weren’t use to having someone there with you, especially demi. And that made it worse for you. You didn’t like having someone stare at you, look at you and put you under pressure, it made you more nervous and you didn’t want to feel worse right now.
You take the water bottle off demi as she stands there seeing you cough. You drink a little and choke on it groaning and getting angry as you had no way of calming down. You way of sorting this out would either be sitting on the side and listening to music, doing something youll regret or just going home. But you couldn’t really do any of those things with demi there.
‘Are you okay?’ demi asks hesistantly as you where holding the side with the sinks on as you where coughing and taking deep breaths… ‘Why would you care’ you snap as she steps back.. ‘I was just asking.’ She says as you cough again.
‘Im sorry but do I look okay to you?!’ you snap again trying to breathe properly. Asking if you where okay really was the most stupidest questions she could ask right now.. you could hear the slight panic in her voice ‘okay uh –uhm sorry-‘ she pauses for a second as she starts to walk towards the door ‘im getting the nurse’ she says quickly as you panic garbing her stopping her from leaving the door.
why did you need a nurse?  ‘NO’ you say as she turns around… ‘What?’… ‘Don’t demi im fine I have this everyday’ you say.. you didn’t want the nurse in here. First of all she would probably tell you off for the medication you where taking and how much of it and she would get involved with the reasons. You just didn’t want that.  ‘Demi I didn’t even want you to be in here! I don’t want the fucking nurse in here do I’ you say then sitting on the side of the sinks with your back against the wall nearly….
‘she can help’ she says as you huff ‘no she cant!! Just leave because neither of you know how to deal with this other than me.. ‘ you grab your phone getting frustrated. You could feel the itching need to do something… to let something out. ‘Why wont you just let me help’ demi asks as you look at her with the worst look you could give. ‘Are you serious right now?... after everything you ever did to me.. not a chance. Get out!’ you say as she glares at you…. Her soft side was fading because you kept on snapping at her. ‘fine’ she says and leaves as you feel nausea sate over yur body. The stress was getting to you way too much and you where thinking way too much.
You feel your stomach turn upside down, like someone was pushing something inside and turning it… 
‘ fuck’
 you mumble getting off the side quickly feeling it all come up.
running to the toilet you drop to your knees as fast as you could dropping your bag on the way hearing things fall our and clatter on the groud as you puke holding the sides… it made you feel totally upside down and dizzy, it wouldn’t stop coming up.
‘I forgot my-‘ you hear a voice in the background ‘y/n--!’ … you where too busy holding onto the sides letting everything that was inside of you out unable to answer the person who you knew it was demi. She had left her bag in the corner. ‘oh my god’ you hear her repeat as you couldn’t stop letting your fluid in your stomach out.
Today had gone beyond out of bounds… this happened a lot at school, but no one ever followed, no one ever saw it happening and you could just deal with it yourself.
you felt her presence behind you as you heard the door shut again. You felt the most nerves in your body knowing more people where entering. All you could do was stop for a second and breathe heavily until you where unable to hold it in more letting it out again.
‘IS THAT Y/N’ you hear a laugh in the background as you hear your toilet shut. ‘n-no this is my friend guys, she sick please leave’
You where too busy gagging and getting dizzy to hear the conversation… but for some reason demi had rushed into your toilet slamming the door so no one could get in and knocking you slighting on the way in pushing you firther. ‘sorry, im –s-sorry calm down’ she says hodlingg you as she had knocked onto you on the way in. She could feel all your mustles tensing as she panicked slightly.
You hear silence in the room as demis friends had left the room doing as she had asked… she had lied so you weren’t going to get grief from them.
Your heart beat was fast… taking over your body and making you feel heavy headed.. ‘leave please leave me alo-‘ you couldn’t even finish your sentence letting more out as she has held onto your sides stroking you slightly as your mustles tensed and tightened in her grip. ‘o-oh god-‘ you choke on your words… you just wanted to cry. You still had little outbursts ever once in a while when you breathed too heavily or spoken.
It was quite awkward between you and demi as she didn’t know how to comfort very well and she knew that you hated her… you didn’t really want her in here. It was embarrassing, this was just one more thing she could take the piss out of you for.
‘Demi please-‘
you repeat and then letting more out. ‘I-m f-fine’ you continues as she still had hold of you a little. ‘UUh-h  your not okay’ she says as you groan feeling your stomach settle a little however you still felt sick and dizzy.
You flush the toilet getting up fast then nearly tripping.. you obviously didn’t have the energy for moving much. ‘C-alm down’ demi says as you fall back onto her as you had fallen. ‘G-get me out of here’ you say feeling trapped in the toilet… there wasn’t enough space and you just felt more panicked. ‘I-ineed to breathe’ you swallow and turn around as demi looked a you concered and opened the door.
‘Argh fuck’ you choke seeing all your stuff over the floor…. Even the tin.
The tin was the thing you kept your ‘tools’ in.
you bend down grabbing that first and putting it in your bag. You where breathing heavily, feeling sick every now and again.
‘I-I need to go home’ you say grabbing your water bottle after putting your packed bag on the side. You couldn’t stand the taste in your mouth. Utterly the worst tatse you could have, it just made you sicker.
Spitting out the water you had washed around your mouth you gagged over the sink spitting it out. ‘im not staying here’ … demi was stood behind you not knowing what to say.
You knew it was time to go home for you, you had no chance of staying at school in this state.
‘How are you getting home?’ demi says as you turn around
‘walking’
she just wouldn’t stop with the questions today, And you had to be honest, it was really annoying. 
‘Why do you keep glaring at me’ she asks as you stand there and take a gulp of you drink then spitting it out again.
‘Because your standing starring at me… you’ve came in and asked unnecessary questions. And I don’t want you in here’
Demi gave you evil eyes and put her hands on her hips.
You couldn’t help but look her up and down. She had a great body but you hated her guts.
‘Excuse me? I stopped my friends coming in for you!’ she says as you roll your eyes.
‘Yeah well we all know your going to be using this on me probably for the rest of my life’
‘thanks in advance’
she smirked at you .. ‘good idea.. I didn’t think of that’
You huff and put your shaking hands in your pockets knowing demi was avoiding looking at them. ‘Fuck you’
This girl really did piss you off, you hated her attitude, she was so up herself to you.. because she knew she was good looking. She knew she had that perfect body.
‘Why are you still shaking?’ she says as you put yoyr hand up to your forehead closing your eyes stressed by her annoying questions. ‘Because you idiot… I have anxiety. And your not helping’ you say trying to say calmly.. ‘now if you could do something helpful for once.. please leave’
your anxiety made you more rude then you where, words left your mouth that you couldn’t control, because you where panicking inside.
‘I was just trying to-‘ demi gut cut off
‘y/n!!!’ you heard a loud voice making you and demi jump as your best friend Hannah came in
‘y/n are you okay !!! I overheard the bitches you where in here sick’
you giggle inside a little at her use of words.. ‘bitches’ was what you and Hannah called demis group.
‘hannah’
you say as she gives you a hug… she knew about everything, you had known eachother for so many years. She was always there for you and she didn’t care what time or where she was, she would come and make sure you where okay.  ‘I wanna go home’ you say as she had stood in front of demi… Your eyes where tearing up and you saw demi behind hannah looking at you, then looking at your bag.
she was holding your face as you sobbed. Finally letting it all out as you werent affraid of Hannah. ‘Come on lets go home’ she says as you sniffle after looking towards the door as it opened and closed with demi huffing. You had both ignored her … and she had left..