Envious Love[Demi Lovato]

Chapter 4

You sat at home by yourself, you where feeling a lot better, as you weren’t surrounded by people at school and you weren’t under pressure in an uncomfortable place.
 Your room was that one place you felt safe in.. you made it your own place. Where you did you own things like singing, working out, your work or just simply to go on your laptop.
You where always in it, you didn’t like coming out of it and you didn’t like being at school, so sitting in your room with music on whilst you chilled out was one of your favourite things to do.
You looked at the time seeing it was 7pm, you mind was drifting to different places as you where sat at the end of your bed… with the mirror in front of you.

You looked at your body and wasn’t pleased by what you saw, you tried to ignore it but your mind just went wondering. … why did people make fun of you at school? Why did you get pushed around like you where nothing. You never did anything wrong to anyone there. Accept for always snapping at Demi or any other people who decided to talk down to you. But that was understandable.
It just made you wonder, why did you always get this treatment at school? You had your own issues but there was no need to talk to you like the way they did. It was as if you where someone who walked around constantly with the words ‘make fun of me’ on your head. Because that’s all anyone ever did accept for a few people that you where friends with..
you where interrupted out of your thoughts as your phone went off… you saw a number but it wasn’t listed in your contacts.

*Hey*
you starred at the number confused and text back..

 *whos this?*  straight away you get a reply.

*That girl you where speaking to the other day *
you thought to yourself quickly remembering a few girls you had added on facebook, they where on your twitter account, all of you had ED/SH accounts were you could let out things and try and help eachother. Even though it didn’t help that much.  You remember you had added them on facebook too. You added quite a lot of them on facebook actually, daily you would have requests.
you took a guess at one of their names, you where particularly closer to liz.

*oh, urm is this liz? From twitter..*
you waited for a reply.
*Yes its me liz, got your number from facebook. how was school?*
you had barely anything to do so you decided to reply quicker than you usually would. Plus you where closer to liz than anyone else on the internet.

*Ur okay I guess.. what about yours?*

*Pretty Shit, why aren’t you sure? What happened*

*Another panic attack, anxiety playing up, I was sick and this girl who keeps on picking on me was there, shes probably going to make fun of me now even more lol*

you press send not paying a lot of attention to what you where saying, not spell checking or re reading.

*Oh. Whats this girls name?*

*Demi*

*Hmmm.. sounds like a bitch*

You nod as you reply

*biggest bitch… never had someone so far down my throat before. She just doesn’t stop*

*Hahaha, well don’t let her get to you. Just speak to her maybe? Maybe she just wants to speak*

You chuckle and answer

*No liz,Shes got loads of friends to speak to.  Shes not like that. She hates my guts she makes my life hell. I haven’t done anything to hurt her yet I hate her. She makes me feel like im not even a person, ive done nothing but beat myself up over that girl*

* wow y/n .. don’t let her get to you that much please. Beat that bitch ;)*

You laugh and smile for the first time in a few hours at her reply.