// ❝ 𝖼𝗈𝗆𝖾 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗆𝖾 ❞ シ // ✔︎

𝖢𝗁𝖺𝗉𝗍𝖾𝗋 𝖲𝗂𝗑

☆(f/n) (l/n)'s pov: ☆

A very loud yell echoed within the metal warehouse as I looked up towards the source of the loud noise. I got worried that Atsushi would've woken up, so I looked down expecting his eyes to be open; he was sound asleep.

I heard four pairs of incoming footsteps as they came closer towards our three bodies. I saw Kunikida from earlier, two males - one with dark hair and the other blonde, and a lady with piercing magenta eyes.

All seemed to be early to mid 20's, except the shortest blonde seemed to be still in his teens. What's a teen doing with a group like this, I wonder.

"You're late Kunikida, I already took care of the tiger." Dazai spoke continuing to look down at Atsushi's unmoving body laying against mine.

I hate being here, so annoying. Why did me and Atsushi have to get caught up in this mess. I continued to zone out, trying to understand this situation at hand.

If Dazai wasn't trying to kill himself that day, we would've been fine. It was all coincidence he tried on that day, and tried in that exact river stream.

A female voice knocked on my conscious as I blinked back to the reality I didn't want to live in anymore.

"No casualties?" Her captivating magenta eyes glanced from the unconscious male to me, "how boring."

I then glance over to a short guy with dark hair who seemed as if he was going to speak next. "You've come a long way Dazai," he flicked his hat, "but you still have a long way before you can catch up to me." Cool, another very confident guy; my favorite. I rolled my eyes at the thought of a certain devious red-haired mafia member.

I didn't really care enough for the last guy, but he seemed cute like any other teen his age. He came up to me and Atsushi as he looked me into the eye.

His face showed one of questioning and confusion as he inquires to the others, "what are we going to do with them..?" I held a face of boredom as I continued to look at the members.

"Can we just leave? I'm tired and I don't really want Atsushi dealing with you guys," I point my index finger towards a certain suicidal person, "especially him."

He looked as if he was going to whine, and as soon as I called it, I hear a, "buuuuttt (F/N).... whyyyyy....?"

I didn't really want to deal with a literal child right now, but I didn't really have a choice.

"Weren't you the one who left me?" I stand up, lifting Atsushi onto my back, making him wrap his arms around my neck as I held the back of his knees; like a father and a kid.

I was towering over all the others with my slim form, "you probably never wanted to see me again, and I can say the same for you; I never wanted to see you again either."

I start to walk forward, not without seeing another look from Dazai's face that was unsolvable. Maybe I'm just stupid, maybe that look from before was a figment of my imagination.

A path was cleared for me as I continued to walk forward without stopping nor looking back. Looking back was always the worst thing you could do.

"(F/N), become one of us."

Stop.

Stop acting like you want me back.

After you just up and left? After you told me so many times that you hate me?

I gave you so many chances, so many.. yet I was always thrown off by you. I hate you Dazai.

I hate you so much.

But I could never truly hate you, and I know that.

I glance back at the floor by his feet, not daring to look at his face; his enigmatic eyes.

"I'm fine."

I continued walking towards the entrance of the warehouse. It seemed so close before, why is it getting farther away? It felt as if ever step I took was the equivalent to a step an ant takes.

"(F/N), please. Come with me."

I stopped in my step.

What did you just say? You can't be serious. Dazai you aren't stupid, what the hell are you saying.

Don't say those words.

Shut up.

Shut up.

Stop.

Dazai, stop.

I should've never left, if I never left, I would still have a home; a family. I thought back to the empty face of Akutagawa, I thought back to the devious grin of Chuuya, I thought back to the drunk smiling face of Oda.

I'm sorry Oda.

I thought maybe the three of us could've been friends in spirit if I stuck by Dazai. How much of a joke I was.

I heard footsteps close in closer between me and Atsushi's body.

"(F/N), come with me, we can be toge-" he started, a sense of guilt within his voice. It sounded like he wanted to start over, but that could never happen.

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!"

It was a scream of regret, pain, and suffering. I missed the Mafia, I missed killing people. I missed not being by Dazai.

I dropped on the floor on my knees, Atsushi still on my back as I started breathing loudly. I turn around and immediately force my eyes with Dazai.

I felt a surge course through my veins that I haven't felt in a very lengthy amount of time. I saw the familiar blue hue around me like the hue around Dazai only moments ago.

Almost immediately I saw Dazai on his knees, his eyes closing, yet they tried to flutter awake desperately. Go to sleep, Dazai, when you wake up; I will be gone. I saw his body almost fall forward as his knees continued to almost give out.

Goodbye.

Then suddenly, my head was forcibly turned away from the almost asleep older male. His breath was warm against my neck as he pulled himself closer to my body.

"Atsushi..?"

I felt a stronger hug as the surge through my veins dissipated almost immediately.

This warmth was so nice.

It was so incredibly nice.

I sighed in content as I turned around, forcing my arms around the smaller framed white-head. I couldn't open my eyes to look back at the ground and the person on the ground, on the brink of an unconscious mind.

I put my nose into Atsushi neck as I inhaled lightly. It felt so nice, he smelt so nice.

"(F/N) j-join u-us."

I opened my eyes, making sure I had a viscous look in my eyes as I looked down at the almost unconscious body.

"I told you, n-"

I heard a small whisper in my right ear, feeling the hug getting even tighter than it was before; it seemed impossible to be even tighter.

"Let's do it (F/N), let's join them."

He pats the back of my head as I scowled lightly. I wanted him all to myself, I didn't want anyone else to hurt him or touch him.

Even if I hate Dazai, I realized that one beautiful thing came out from him leaving me; it was me meeting Atsushi Nakajima.

"Fine, we'll join you guys."
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you guys hear about the databreach, yeah, love my life.

Anyways, have a good night, love you.